Craw - open letter

I walk around without a single thought inside my head
I talk too loud I panic when I hear nothing that's said
I stomp the ground I'm manic see me hold on by a thread
I know that I'm dynamic like I'm known to get ahead
Of myself when I try not to fall apart
Kind of like the time I saw the ditch and took the car
Mind of my own kind I'll show you that I take it far
Got to draw the line or maybe I'll go raise the bar
I'm so lost inside my days
I go and tear down my display
I wish that I could float away
A bitch can't even save the day
Start think that I'm stuck here helpless
I can't stand it when I'm selfish
I just wish that I could shelf it
4am is when I felt it
When my life fell into pieces
Feel the same through every season
I just I wish I got a reason
People listening in Sweden
Yet I feel alone inside a town that I would say I'm trapped in
Yeah I spill my soul I make a sound that's why I started rapping
How I lost control it's like a hole that's why I'm out here mapping
Yeah I fill the hole with anything I call myself the captain
I feel like a decimal
I count up like a percentage
It's myself I reinvented
Like I wonder if you meant it
All the hurt that I presented
Wasn't what I recommended
Check your phone I sent a message
On my own I clean the wreckage
There's some things I couldn't reckon
How I lost you in a second
Shit I thought that we had said forever
How you ask me not to leave
I told you that I wouldn't never
Like quit talking make believe
I still think that we're best together
Like I'll go save you a seat
Like this shit put me under weather
Now it's time to paint the scene
Of every single broken dream
I lost too many on my team
The way my head is full of steam
I punch a wall and then I scream
I blame myself for all my problems
At this rate I'm dropping albums
I just need some peace like Malcom
Too bad I can't tell the outcome
When I wanna get away from everything that's in my mental
Like my heart is full of rage at this rate I'll go crash a rental
How I got nothing to say I hate it when I'm sentimental
Promise I'm not here to play it's why I keep it confidential
Making sure it never leaks
I haven't been myself in weeks
You'll find my body in a creek
I want a mill just like I'm meek
I guess it's time I open up
I'm a fucking schizophrenic
Got some voices I befriended
Not okay but I pretended
Just so I could have the energy to make the people smile
Like I wonder what got into me I'm searching for the file
When I think that I'm the enemy got no one I can dial
How forever's not infinity I been here for awhile
I'll tell you how I really live
And no you don't have to forgive
Like this is really how it is
Somebody book another gig
I wasn't happy as a kid
Or with anything that I did
When I got scared I went and hid
It's why I'm living off the grid
With all the things I wish I knew
I didn't know that this would proof
That this is what it takes to choose
A life of glory comes with dues
A saddened story comforts you
The same with me that makes us two
I do this shit to make it through
The challenges and say I grew
The foggy weather how I passed it
With some symptoms everlasting
Mind and body interacting
With no service I'm adapted
To my life I feel fantastic
You can live your life in plastic
I prefer to rip the fabric
Live my life like I'm a maverick
Like I'm Luka pull the three
I feel like somethings holding me
From everything I wanna be
And sometimes it gets hard to see
I show my scars and say I'm torn
I shoot for stars stuck by a thorn
I'm out on mars I'm far from home
I raise the bars when I'm alone
I think it's time I go get better
This is more than just a letter
Show my heart like it's on leather
I take my feelings to the shredder
I got some simple shit to own
So I'll go cover what's unknown
The building ground that's for my throne
I fill the sound with what I know
It's like I got to get ahead of everything before I grow

Written by:
Caden Crawford

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