Frizzy Da God - Rest In Paradise

Dear Brother
I been dreaming about you
Most of the time when I'm laying down I think about the things didn't do
How I could of improved
How I didn't nurture you with more passion and pursuit
I always told myself you were the issue instead of doing more than lecturing, I should have took you through what I've been through
We grew up in the same household but with different views
And that was all I knew
But I didn't know your pain
I wish I fucking knew
Cause things could of change
The outcome wouldn't be so blue
All I seen was the streets, how you thugin and being g was all inside of my belief
It left a permanent seed and I missed the obvious things like how you looked up to me
What you inspired to be
Wasn't to push all of the p
To be the figure picture to the family
I should have gave you more respect instead of tryna give you intellect because all you did was leave me upset and more regrets
I know I hadn't been the best brother in past years
Was more like a role model that you held dear
I tried to show you the light in the times of doing right, not having to steal or fight
Now it's all clear
A different type of fear more deadlier than not having a career
The constant comparison
Why you not like the older brother
You're an embarrassment is probably what you thought or even heard
Not cherished a bit
Being in my shadow just wasn't it
So you did what you needed just to get that acknowledgment
I hope you were proud of it or maybe I'm just wrong and you wanted the opposite
To leave it in the past but you got caught back in all of it and had to suffer the consequence
I pray to god you found peace of mind
Once upon a time you were once a piece of mine
Now I'm struggling to find that inner strength to reach up high and leap into the sky cause when I'm thinking bout the times
All I fucking do is cry
Just the brotherhood between you and I
Maybe even that we outgrew
I didn't wanna have to lose
Now I'm sitting in a room questioning why was it you
But I get no response so I'm left confused
Hurt inside without a clue
In spirit not the physical is hard for me to accept and that's the hard part getting past your death cause that's the first step
It's almost deja vu because our cousin was shot and killed at 18 too
Life is without lessons is very true but I wish the lesson hadn't took your life from you
People tell me that I shouldn't blame myself
But I feel like I'm the cause of your death
The anger from that thought is why I can't accept the fact your gone
The closest person to my heart has just left
I think I need some help
To repair the hole inside of my chest
My heart is missing parts and bits of it
And god with all due respect
The way you pick and choose just isn't the best and you need to improve that tool and make it correct
I still thank you god
He's now in a better place
I love you brother
I wish you didn't die or have to meet your demise the way you did but you got to see the light
I know the grass is prettier on the other side
Just save a huge spot up on a hill for your family lives
You're in heaven now, you don't need no more advice
Happy birthday nigga
Rest in paradise

Written by:
Daryl Westry

Publisher:
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid

Lyrics powered by Lyric Find