Dennis Hobbs - Proud

Spent so much time just trying to be unstoppable
Sitting in the spot, plotting how I'ma dodge these obstacles
When they off you ain't much of a process on dropping you
Getting shit done but they don't care if you got a lot to do

Even as a kid I was always hearing I'm proud of you
But what if that don't got much, meaning if you blow it all
Gotta fix it cause I know my spending been on overhaul
Who exactly am I to pretend like I know it all

But that's my way of trying to keep you proud
And what I don't know I'll learn now
Won't take me long to figure it out
My biggest fear of all is letting somebody down

Learning how to triumph through these different trials
But that's my way of trying to keep you proud
And what I don't know I'll learn now
Won't take me long to figure it out

My biggest fear of all is letting somebody down
Learning how to triumph through these different trials
Spent so much time saying I got past the rough shit
Knowing that through me doing that it was still some fuck shit

Few sprinkles of good but still some interruptions
But I'm here to talk about it so I guess I should be appreciative
That I leveled up and got accustomed
And that the people I got around still love me

But imma still discuss the good, bad, and the ugly
Cause I can't be pretending that certain shit ain't above me
But that's my way of trying to keep you proud
Let me take a second as I have been to explore my mental

Lots of thoughts that cross my mind, some coincidental
Maybe I shouldn't give a damn, it could all be so simple
Maybe it's the bad things that get me through these instrumentals
Been hard to express myself but God be sending signals

And I know they be loud when I be stuck on what I didn't do
But shit, everybody's standards different when it comes to potential
So what's the point of my face glued to the screen like a kid with a Kindle
What's the point of me stating that I'm just misunderstood

So if I overstated that I'm guessing that part's on me
But I don't let it hinder ability
To speak out on my needs, to dot my I's and cross my T's
And keep people up to speed

Not everybody gives a fuck that you feel more relieved
Of what you might have achieved
Or that over time you feel more complete
If you comparing yourself to somebody else that been did it

The first step you won't leave
And that shit old
My therapist told me to reach out more
But sometimes you gotta put your arms in your sleeves

Cause this shit cold
Ain't heard from you in months and I'm done
Asking if you good cause I assume
If you can read, you can breathe

Hope that hit home
Good memories always hit the deepest
The matriarch on my pop's side of the family gone
So when it comes to loving memories I ain't eager

I'm just trying to be able to say I ain't fumbled
I be so off the grid I'm wondering who's sending bat signals
To people I ain't heard from in years
To ask me for money

I'm talking about people so far out of touch
They gotta dig through the grates
And go through ten people they might have been closer to
That stayed with it on them

I know I bought up therapy a couple times
But I wish it wasn't frowned upon in families
Cause that man up shit
Y'all be on, gonna make a lot of us crumble

But that's my way of trying to keep you proud
And what I don't know I'll learn now
Won't take me long to figure it out
My biggest fear of all is letting somebody down

Written by:
Dennis Hobbs

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