Lulu Grey - Who I Was

It's been a long time since 2019
And it feels like I've only gotten worse, it seems
Crumbling every single day, wasting my mental health away
Over what everyone else wants me to be

I am not who I was back then
That person is gone
And if you think I wanna bring her back
Then I'm sorry, but you're dead wrong
And if you want who I was back then
Then keep looking on
For someone else who can better fill the role of this pathetic pawn

It's not like I haven't tried before
But every time I do, I get knocked back there more
Worried that it's so ingrained in my own mind that there's nothing I can do to change and grow this time
So why don't you all just back the fuck off?

I am not who I was back then
That person is gone
And if you think I wanna bring her back
Then I'm sorry, but you're dead wrong
And if you want who I was back then
Then keep looking on
For someone else who can better fill the role of this pathetic pawn

I know it's hard to grow up (You can't evolve when you refuse to change)
But I'd rather die than blow up (Because I can't handle more of this rage)
At everyone I know
For not putting on their show
And trying to save the lost
But is it worth the cost?
NO!

'Cause I am not who I was back then
That person is gone
And if you think I wanna bring her back
Then I'm sorry, but you're dead wrong

And if you want who I was back then
Then keep looking on
For someone else who can better fill the role of this pathetic pawn

I am not who I was back then (That person is gone)
And if you think I wanna bring her back (Then I'm sorry, but you're dead wrong)
And if you want who I was back then (Then keep looking on)
For someone else who can better fill the role this pathetic pawn

Written by:
Louise Grey

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