Premium Rat - connecticut

I used to run away all the time
Armed with three outfits and no food
Make it a few blocks 'fore I realized
I was screwed
Cause even if I ran away
I couldn't outrun my brain
I remember sitting on the stairs
Eavesdropping on mom and dad
Fighting over me, they were scared
Cause a child shouldn't be this sad
Every night at 3am like clockwork
Regurgitate my guts, stress out the doctors
Turns out rich friends and a broken home
Don't do a lot to make you feel less alone
Running on naive New York dreams in Connecticut
Could only see suburban streets as desolate
I'm 6 years old in kindergarten
Begging dad to put me in the talent show
And I think that this is when it started
A little girl who just wanted to know
Maybe if I can sing
My life can really mean something
Turns out white classmates and cul-de-sacs
Don't do a lot to show you the things you lack
Helicopter pads in fucking Connecticut
Decadence felt a lot more like a deficit
But I know that I'm so lucky
'Cause we've taken the ladder as truth
The place I hate I know it gave me
The chance to choose
To see the ladder for what it is
Or pretend it isn't there
But Connecticut has skewed the axis
And told themselves it's fair
And I'd rather be (I'd rather be)
I'd rather be (I'd rather be)
I'd rather be anywhere
I'd rather be anywhere

Written by:
Meredith Gillies

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