Fanaticus - Where Am I/Relapse (feat. BdotJeff)

This some like, 2012 shit
It's only right

I could've dreamed I had the past back
Running circles around the memories I had that
I been wishing for some change, where it start at
Got a vision of utopia I'm past that, I guess a flashback
Will paint a picture that's so vivid, I'm a run laps
Pace that, trying to get the feeling that I had back
Don't lack, ready for whatever I'm a clap back
Cash that token, I'm a grind 'cause I'm chosen
I'm a star in the moment
I'm a get it while I'm sipping on my potion
I been ready ever since I been floating
Blue dream spark a dream, shit I'm open
Spark a blunt for inspiration that's the motion
Eyes is heavy while it's written, what is spoken
Got a feeling that you do this shit often, so what's it costing
You better close the damn coffin
I ain't in Boston, this ain't no tea party
But we need a revolution and my service spotty
The revolution will be televised and streamed shorty
And you can't call me if the weather shotty
Just come over, get the message started
I ain't writing sober 'cause the pain be costing
Come and see this office, say the world is flawless
I ain't speaking for myself I need to hear your thoughts
So what you on with

I really knew that you the one, I was ready
Counting from the days to the months we was steady
Couldn't think about a life without you, sun setting
Bullet in my brain, if you don't want me why you message
Told myself I'd never love another in this world like you
Goddamn, I should've knew I was a tool
But hindsight 20/20 like that
I'm finna keep going, even if I gotta cap, yeah

I got to cap to live 'cause I ain't past the shit
I'm finna face a Backwoods 'till I'm off the shits
I need a bunch of fucking O's, make me paper rich
Because my mind so sharp I was born for this
You ever been equipped
With some knowledge to spit
You ever wonder about a life where you don't need a fix, shit
I don't mind, we can share the spliff
Contemplating 'bout the universe, a cosmic riff
Split into the darkness, I'm so exhausted
I planned a life around you when the sparks hit
And now I'm thoughtless, if I'm being honest
I smoke the pain away, the studio my office
I'm finna off this, I keep my heart split
'Cause all you ever want to do is kill my dreams
Chasing all these memories I wonder what it means
So I'm coughing up the tar, trying to stop the bleed in me

I really knew that you the one, I was ready
Counting from the days to the months we was steady
Couldn't think about a life without you, sun setting
Bullet in my brain, if you don't want me why you message
Told myself I'd never love another in this world like you
Goddamn, I should've knew I was a tool
But hindsight 20/20 like that
I'm finna keep going, even if I gotta cap, yeah

Overdosed all alone in my apartment
Only way that I can fix this broken heart, and
Sleeping pills give me comfort like 2012 and
I pray my death be painless
I'm sick of living aimless, help me
I know that I can't breathe
Because the pain of love is suffocating me
I wonder if you ever notice what you did to me
And now my heart it bleeds

I took a year off to get right
Disappeared in the summer, woke through the night
R.I.P. Cam Rellim, hope you see the light
I'm a show them all the Faces, yeah we finna fight
We was kids, I was wishing for the best day ever
Then I took some vitamins, it's Macadelic weather
Blue slide park, got a heart you can't measure
I been watching movies with the sound off for the pleasure
Yeah I bet you better than the last time
I'm finna kiss her good morning with the sunshine
Wasn't laying in my bed, where the fuck am I
Still dark, couldn't sleep, I just want to find
A little peace another heaven, what's behind my eyes
DMT it will release inside a dream of mine
You appear I see it clear, but you leave me dry
Got shot in the head waking up I cry, man fuck this

Last night, dreamed I had the past back
Had shorty in my arms, that's a flashback
I need her right now, need a flash pass
I'm hopping in the Porsche with the top back

And every night I blow clouds hoping that I don't dream
Got me at the Lord's door, I just really want to scream
Let 'em know if he going to take me, let it be in my sleep
Without your love it's pain when I breathe, free me please lord

Overdosed all alone in my apartment
Only way that I can fix this broken heart, and
Sleeping pills give me comfort like 2012 and
I pray my death be painless
I'm sick of living aimless, help me
I know that I can't breathe
Because the pain of love is suffocating me
I wonder if you ever notice what you did to me
And now my heart it bleeds

Bloody knuckles 'cause I'm feeling shit
Too damn numb, why I ain't feeling shit
Thinking 'bout hurting so I can feel some shit
So lost, never thought 'bout feeling shit
This aimless line I walk inside I do that on my own
Constructive criticism's nice but advice is mostly just wrong
This path is for me all alone, my own faults I must atone
So I bleed it out with this ink, these faces I'm not recognizing
I don't know this man in the mirror
So stained so I'm trying to see it clearer
Feeling negative (Three K)
Next to Andre (Three K)
So cold, typing this makes my fingers hurt
Work, myself just needs the help
Not trying to fall back in the trap
But these demons always fighting me
They always stay doing that
Wanna just quit and take this nap, just smoke this J don't write no raps
Disappear from everything, never make it back
R.I.P. Chester, and Rest Easy Mac like

Overdosed all alone in my apartment
Only way that I can fix this broken heart, and
Sleeping pills give me comfort like 2012 and
I pray my death be painless
I'm sick of living aimless, help me
I know that I can't breathe
Because the pain of love is suffocating me
I wonder if you ever notice what you did to me
And now my heart it bleeds

Written by:
Tyrell Compton, Wade Blair

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Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid

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