Real Yoits - This Isn't Me

Why can't I change
Why is there stress
What happened to always being my best
What's coming next
When will I rest
When will I not be upset
I'm mentally drained
And I am afraid
I will lose all that I gave
And at the rate that I'm going I might be with hate
I can not take it, I need a break
All I can say is I'm trying
On the outside I'm fine
But really deep down I'm dying
I swear I'm not lying
I ain't the type to be whining
The truth I ain't finding
I've pushed myself to the brink of collapse
I am afraid the future wont be like the past
I am afraid that I truly don't know where I am at
I'm so sorry
But this isn't me
I just wanna leave
Please let me breathe
Choices hurt
You did the wrong ones you look back on em and thing you are dirt
And you are not sure
If your life would better if those choices never occurred
What if the bad people in my life never existed
Maybe a better existence
A better life I would be living
I'm living the worst of my life
Think bout sad thoughts on all of my nights
All of the fights
All of the hype
Everything I've ever done wrong or right
Maybe that's me
I can not tell
But the hurt makes me feel like someone else
Not asking for help
It's hard to do what I do
When what you wanted to do is no longer what you wanted to pursue
And I shouldn't push myself to go through all of the pain that I go through
Cause sometimes I don't care if everything is what I lose
Every day my life just loses more and more sense
I'm starting to feel the water rising to my chest
I can't breathe
Praying asking god help me please
I'm on my knees
I can't see
I don't understand if this life is what god wants me to be
Please let me go
I need to know
There's more to this
More to this painful life that I live
Cause I ain't got nothing left to give
No
I'm so sorry
But this isn't me
I just wanna leave
Please let me breathe
I'm so sorry
But this isn't me
I just wanna leave
Please let me breathe

Written by:
Immanuel Savchin

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