C.B. Mac - Confidence

What a curse it has been
Change only come with the turbulent winds
And I'm drained trying to run with these versions within
Now the aim's to become one person again
So I work with a pen
Trying to discover myself with every word that I bend
I'm picking apart the pieces to purge and prevent
The possible pandemonium of those that prefer to pretend
Placing my faith in my craft
Leave my soul saved on the track just in case I collapse
Patient, relaxed
I blaze through the maze of these unamazing lazy days of rap
But what if I can't change the fact
I'm lame or wack
Is Mac just an angry hack
I'm hanging back
Forget this whole thang but rap's
A lit wick and I just want to be the candle wax
Is there enough space left
To bleed my heart and soul for one paycheck
But even when I leave still my lungs make breath
Through the beats and albums made best
Most think I still won't make it but same say yes
And for that, I done stayed blessed
I will not be the eventual memory of an unpaid vet
Whose lyricism once slayed death

What if I fall off and can't get back on
What if I never find where I went wrong
What if I fail and it's too much to take
It might just break all my confidence
What if I fall off and can't get back on
What if I never know where I went wrong
What if I fail and it's too much to take
I might just lose all my confidence

Are my efforts in vain
Should I lay the mic down or step up my game
So many levels of pressure mess with my brain
Stress and in pain, yes
But the question remains
Am I willing to walk away from whatever happens
Without waking wrecked and waiting to hop on the wonder wagon
I guess time will tell
Won't be living in the past tense, whine or dwell
I'm alive and well
Grind like hell until I die or I'm shining
There really ain't no other choice that I can find and
I keep close to those I know I can confide in
And master my flow like my soul was Poseidon
So tell me is it destiny that's testing me
To fight until I rest in peace
Or is the quest a piece
Of a puzzle that helps me see
My true self and that love is the recipe
From dawn to the dusk
I'm on until I'm dust
Leave it all to my family
Stay strong cuz I must
While I ponder and trust
All the forces I cannot see
Never say never
I treasure whatever
Endeavors that better me
Write songs from the gut
Until I'm only a memory
Is there enough space left
To bleed my heart and soul for one paycheck
But even when I leave still my lungs make breath
Through the beats and albums made best
Most think I still won't make it but same say yes
And for that, I done stayed blessed
I will not be the eventual memory of an unpaid vet
Whose lyricism once slayed death

What if I fall off and can't get back on
What if I never find where I went wrong
What if I fail and it's too much to take
It might just break all my confidence
What if I fall off and can't get back on
What if I never know where I went wrong
What if I fail and it's too much to take
I might just lose all my confidence

Written by:
Christopher McIntyre

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