Zay Marr - Solace (feat. Mysti Leighanne)

I'm detached from every soul
Lookin' to me for connection
Won't fake laugh, not anymore
I hate it when I would play jester
I let it go, still I have tension
From way back in my childhood
I'm dying inside of a dungeon that I made myself
My heart has the thickest walls
Waiting for someone to breakthrough
Most won't even try at all
I truly admit I don't blame them
Locked up inside of my chamber
Even if they pick the lock
I still don' let them get involved
I'm terrified that I'll make them hate me
Man I feel hopeless
How do I cope with
This mental illness
So severe, I hate the numbness
It hurts my loved ones
The people closest
I know we'd all be happy if I could control this
To my my mom I made a promise I'd go see a doctor
Just made the appointment but since I'm being honest
I don't know if it's gone help me or make me a monster
I'm seeking solace
Where is my safety
From the pain
Yeah I gotta take it off
Tell me can you hear me
Screaming out as loud as I can
Solace
Can you save me from my self
Solace
Oh, Solace
I talk to my therapist twice a month
I feel like it's helping but not every session
I purchase tobacco and light it up
I shouldn't do it but it's an addiction
Whenever I quit it I will erupt
Part of me's hoping I meet a good woman
To take all my burdens and free my love
But I gotta go and heal me my self
Been praying hard, but I'm pissed at God
Cus I feel the distance, I miss you God
I shouldn't blame you, it's my fault
My feet have failed in my Christian walk
I'm hustling, running in place
I'm working to forget the pain
But no matter how much I flee from it
I feel like I'm being still chased
So Father please take me away
And tell me just what it would take
Grab my depression and breathe on it
I know that your power can change
My ways
I feel you in my life sometimes
But it's been a few weeks
Yeah, Yeah
Now I just live in silence
My thoughts are violent
I'm suicidal, I'm miserable
I need you Father
I'm seeking solace
I'm losing hope
Where is my safety
From the pain
Yeah I gotta take it off
Tell me can you hear me
Screaming out as loud as I can
Solace
Can you save me from my self
Solace
Oh, Solace

Written by:
Isaiah Marr, Mysti Leighanne

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