Emindy - Difficult

Anybody feel like me
Does anybody dress like Me or talk like me with a Messed up memory
And a Bad history to the point it Damages your destiny
Cause the life ahead of me Is looking like a legacy Where I'm only gonna be Known as Emindy with a Huge dent in me that's Gonna be the death of me
Yeah I said it
I regret living
My heads filling with sick Venom
I cant feel if Im awake or Asleep
Thats meth killing me and My enemy
I can bet in a million years Im still gonna be a broke Human being dreaming of The day When I get released
Yeah its what everybody Thinks so keep suffering
Thats how its meant to be
Life is so fake to me
I can barely defeat the Thoughts that are racing In my mind
Its prolly why I quit so Easily
It's in my Genes I mean Look at my mom rest in Peace
Shes been dead to me since I was three
So why would i care for Something thats not even There and her family
There so screwed off in the Head I wish they were Dead
And her parents that Molested me like how can You sit there and rape a Little kid
How can you sit there and Pretend ill forget
How can you sit there and Treat me the way you did
How can you sit there now And act like I dont exist
Your absolutely pathetic

I know I know I can be Difficult sometimes but its Just too hard
Its just too hard to forget
You ruined me, ruined me And made my life so Difficult
I dont understand why I Exist

Got a house I live in with a Roof over my head but my Fray still feels depressed Somedays
I just wanna quit and walk Away and just become Anonymous and erase my Name Because I'm feeling Lost a bit
Wanna change my ways From this freaking spot Im In
I dont feel the same the Way I did back then now
That I've remembered Everything that I gone Through when I was a kid
They say dont open Pandoras box but I think I Did and its become more Evil
Than we imagined Cause now I have sleep Paralysis and keeps Nagging
That Im gonna Meet death and its casket But I leave and just keep Rapping
I feel selfish
I cant help it
My head is melting from The lack of sleep Ive dwelt With from the past week
Its overwhelming to the Point my heart is swelling Up with the anger
Im Trapping its yelling to let Loose but I keep grasping
To not let it out but Ive Been thinking about it to Just drown it
But it survives it
How many times do I have To keep fighting
How many times do I have To keep reminding my girl Im trying
How many times am I Gonna keep having these Dreams about dying
How many times do I have To write it
How many more times am I gonna stay up the whole Night crying

I know I know I can be Difficult sometimes but its Just too hard
Its just too hard to forget
You ruined me, ruined me And made my life so Difficult
I dont understand why I Exist

Written by:
Michael Lynn

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