Candler - Dissatisfied

People say it doesn't get better than what I have in life
And yet I'm still dissatisfied
Like half of me has had its time
Then waved at me it's last goodbye
I've sacrificed, my avid side
To grasp and find
No laughing times could mask the lie
This doesn't reap my maddened mind
But this game ain't what I had in mind
So this music is my last disguise
And I might just fight
God himself to keep these raps alive
But this writer's block just keeps me thinking
Lead me to where my casket lies
Cascading cries they lie beneath my lips as shut as Catholics thighs
So tightly closed
Cause I'm too afraid to speak my mind
Or maybe I just don't know how to
Either way something's not right
The left and right side of my mind
They will fight
Until nothing seems right
I don't know what is right
They say the pieces will fall into place
But it feels like some are missing
And I'll look everywhere for them
But they're just so well hidden
So I will search until I question
The pieces very existence
Or wonder if that part of my life just hasn't yet been written
So now I sit in
A fountain of melancholic dissatisfaction
Flipping coins up off my finger
Wasting wishes like Aladdin
I can't imagine
What I would wish for if I had three
What I would ask for
But to be honest
I'd prolly waist all three of 'em if I had em
Cause these days
Feels like I don't even know what I want anymore
These days
I don't feel like the same person as before
Like my metamorphosis
Has been more than I thought I'd be in store for
And I'm torn
Between the worlds of being a kid and being mature
But I guess it feels like I'm missing something I used to have
Back when I was a kid and I used to laugh
That part of me that wasn't nervous about how to act
The part of me that didn't care
The one that didn't wear a mask
Cause getting older ain't a dream
See it's a nightmare in disguise
What I've thought my whole life
It turns out it was a lie
I wished everyday to get this
Now I wish it wasn't mine
I guess that is why
I'm dissatisfied, dissatisfied
Cause getting older ain't a dream
See it's a nightmare in disguise
What I've thought my whole life
It turns out it was a lie
I wished everyday to get this
Now I wish it wasn't mine
I guess that is why
I'm dissatisfied, dissatisfied
Worried sick, I'm sick of worrying
I wish I could hurry back
To having littler hurdles in
Life, as a kid I wish I murdered it
I wish I wasn't desperate
About getting big and strong like Rumble McSkirmish is
So unconcerned with it
Life had no burdens
It is amazing what hurt me then
Thought I had the worst of it
I was so ignorant
Wanted to grow up quick
Now it's the opposite
I wanna be there again
And I know that seems childish
But that's my intent with this, isn't it
Isn't it
Isn't that my wish
I guess just really wanna be a kid again
Yeah I think it is
I just wanna be a kid again
But I cannot lie
Would that even make me satisfied
If I could really go back in time
To before I'd even have these rhymes
Or would I still lay here sad at life
With a bag of lies
That I capitalize
Would I laugh or smile
Or would my past remind
All the lavish times
That I sacrificed
It's the latter right
Maybe I'll just start over then
Say goodbye to my older friends
And make new ones that I'm closer with
Would I go again
Before I had a reason to write this song
Seems like nothing's really appreciated until it's really gone
Am I wrong
Cause getting older ain't a dream
See it's a nightmare in disguise
What I've thought my whole life
It turns out it was a lie
I wished everyday to get this
Now I wish it wasn't mine
I guess that is why
I'm dissatisfied, dissatisfied
Cause getting older ain't a dream
See it's a nightmare in disguise
What I've thought my whole life
It turns out it was a lie
I wished everyday to get this
Now I wish it wasn't mine
I guess that is why
I'm dissatisfied, dissatisfied

Written by:
Jackson Carrington

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