Ajay Friese - F***ing Sad

'Cause I've been feelin' so under the weather
Yeah, when I go to sleep my life gets better
So I wrote this song just to say

I'm fucking sad, it's become a habit
I learned my conscience is a noose and I've fuckin' grabbed it
Now every time that I feel happy it's just elastic
It's like I got given a guitar just to fuckin' smash it
I wore my heart right on my sleeve and look where that got me
People telling me I'm wrong, that my heart is ugly
Now every mornin' when I wake up it takes a bit to come back to my head
It's like 1, 2, 3, 4, "Fuck friendlybrownkid!"

(Woah, woah, hey, hey!)
Sorry, sorry
I just had to get that out
'Cause sometimes I really fuckin' hate myself
Stabbed myself in the heart with a hot knife
And it's taken so long to cool (Yeah, is this a rap song?)
Yeah, more like a slap my own ass song
Kinda' feelin' bad about the past song
Yeah, this one's not like the last songs
And when I take it to the back street (Take it, take it, take it)
I was a happy kid with the ass of a flat screen

Now my heart's bled out to the Maxi
Catch me at Ba's sippin' mango lassi
I never had to worry 'bout my ass a lot
In school never worried if I'd pass or not
On Netflix I play a mothafuckin' astronaut
(Oh, Sir Lancelot? Oh oh, no, uh, sorry that was garbage)

I'm not tellin', but I just might be a villain
Zip my lips, no I'm not spillin'
Chillin' with the same homies I hurt
It's my fault for better or worse
I ain't lying, sometimes it feels like they spyin'
On my brown ass, ya catch me crying
And I'm tryin' not to deny what I can't take
But not buyin' what doesn't align with my namesake
I'm in the shower, probably be here for half-hour
Hot water pourin' on my body like Malawi, ayy

I wore my heart right on my sleeve and look w-where that got me
People tellin' me I'm wrong, that my heart is bad
But I should probably just get back up and keep on walkin'
Cuz I'm so tired of always feelin'

So fuckin' sad, it's become a habit
I learned my conscience is a noose and I've fuckin' grabbed it
Now every time that I feel happy it's just elastic
It's like I got given a guitar just to fuckin' smash it
I wore my heart right on my sleeve and look where that got me
Got people tellin' me I'm wrong, that my heart is ugly
Now every mornin' when I wake up it takes a bit to come back to my head
It's like 1, 2, 3, 4, "Fuck friendlybrownkid!"

Hey!
I'm not tellin' but I just might be a villain
Zip my lips, no I'm not spillin'
Chillin', with the same homies I hurt
It's my fault for better or worse
And I'm tryin' not to deny what I can't take
But not buyin' what doesn't align with my namesake
I ain't lyin', sometimes it feels like they spyin'
On my brown ass, yeah catch me cryin'
In the shower, probably be here for half-hour
Hot water pourin' on my body like Malawi, ayy!

I wore my heart right on my sleeve and look w-where that got me
People tellin' me I'm wrong, that my heart is bad
But I should probably just get back up and keep on walkin'
Cause I'm so tired of always feelin' so fuckin'
Sad (He's sad, he's fuckin' sad)
Sad (He's sad, he's fuckin' sad)

I'm fuckin' sad, it's become a habit
My conscience is a noose, I've fuckin' grabbed it
Now when I feel happy it's just elastic
It's like I got given a guitar just to fuckin' smash it
I wear my heart right on my sleeve

Written by:
Ajay Parikh-Friese

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