Jus Xay - One Big Mess (feat. JB SamSon)

I know
I done messed up
I'm sorry
I'm just one big old mess
I'm sorry
I can't get it together
I know
I just wanna be better
For you
I'm just one big old mess
Sorry
I'm sorry that you didn't watch me grow
Sorry that you didn't see me reach my goals
Not a day goes by that you're not on my mind
Stuck to the path and never strayed from the grind
I'm just one big old mess
Losing my mind to stress
Cutting off friends to be counterproductive
Sorry for all the poor decisions that I stuck with
I was just that young dumb kid
Worried about me and never gave two shits
I would apologize but I'm stuck in my own lies
And I never knew why
I been falling down on the low
I been on an island all on my own
Got me playing voicemails back on my phone
If only I could answer why'd ya have to go
Got me messed up messed up over you
Got me messed up, messed up
Messed up messed up over
Yea yea
Do you remember the time
Do you remember way back before I saw my first dime
When being honest wasn't a crime
Those deep conversations when you were still alive
With no one to fill your shoes I feel dead inside
Celebrated your life because I'm not the mourning type
Sleepless nights thinking this can't be right
But it can't be wrong
This isn't a goodbye or a so long
I'll never forget your soul
Never let your words grow so old
It was like yesterday
When you said stop playing that video game and go get your pay
A day wasted just isn't a day
Keep your head up and focus on the change son
Just never ever forget where you came from
I been falling down on the low
I been on an island all on my own
Got me playing voicemails back on my phone
If only I could answer why'd ya have to go
Got me messed up messed up over you
Got me messed up, messed up
Messed up messed up over
Yea yea
Can't be who you want me to be
But I'm trying my best, best believe
Can't bring you back no matter what I do
But I can't let you go
Ain't that selfish of me
Can't be all you want me to be
But I'm trying my best, best believe
Can't bring you back no matter what I do
But I can't let you go
Ain't that selfish of me
I know, I know, I know
I'ma big mess since you had to go
I know you're gone and I know I can't bring you back
But I still have your contact in my phone where I never texted back
Knowing that was your last breath made me really feel that
Hit my line just one more time for the deep chat
I'll get it together just for one more chance
You showed me how to be a better man
DC

Written by:
James Benbow Jr., Xavier Wooding

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