Jesse Blaze - The Phoenix - Castle

She smiles at me through memories, her reflection fades to black.
I remember in my dreams at night, the ones I can't get back.
If there's a god I want to punch him. If there's a hell I'm there.
I thought I made a good husband, but apparently it's not my cross to bear.
I never wanted death, never wanted hate, never wanted war, but here it goes
again.

I only wanted life, wanted love. Doesn't matter now, I'll never see them again.
Voices float in air then freeze, what they say I'm never sure.
The little things that made them smile, wish that I'd have had more.
The things they did, I sure miss em, they made one hell of a pair.
I thought I made a good father, but apparently it's not my cross to bear.
I never wanted death, never wanted hate, never wanted war, here it goes again.
I only wanted life, wanted love. Wanted peace...
It wasn't always like this I used to smile most days,
I had love in my heart, but they took that away.
It wasn't always like this, it wasn't always like...
It wasn't always like this, it wasn't always like...
It wasn't always like this, it wasn't always like this.
It wasn't always like this.
Now, this is the part I don't understand.
The shots ring out in songs like these, but my job is never done.
Yeah, they ask for life, and a second chance, but I never got to have one.
If there's an end I can't see it. I try to look, but it's not there.
I know I made a good soldier, cause apparently that's my cross to bear,
That's my cross to bear, that's my cross to bear!
I wanted death, I wanted hate, I wanted war, so here it goes again.
I never wanted life, wanted love, wanted peace...
It wasn't always like this somehow I lost my way,
When those bullets struck true and they blew me away.
It wasn't always like this, it wasn't always like...
It wasn't always like this, it wasn't always like...
It wasn't always like this, it wasn't always like this.
It wasn't always like this.!
Those bullets my nightmares, those people are my family,
Your lives my anger. Do it for them, I do it for me.
Do it for them. Fuck it, I do it for me!
Those bullets my nightmares, those people are my family,
Your lives my anger. Do it for them, I do it for me.
For me! For me!

Written by:
Jesse Snider

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