Lizzie Loch - Cultural Intoxication

I've never really been interested in alcohol
Although, for many years I was
Intoxicated
By culture

TV
Hollywood...

The allure was strong
My emotions were pulled on
I was enticed by the tonic of culture...

I drank it
Smoothly...
Bit by bit

Drowning my souls truth
In cultural
Programs and ideals
Of popularity
Body
Identity
Sexuality

It was
Fabulously
And
Brutally harming
Me

But this cosmopolitan tonic was so good
I loved the sweet taste, the sugar had me
Coming back for more

I drank the lyrics of pop idols
I grooved, inspired by their lives

Not knowing I was programming my mind...
You could say
"I got lost in the game"
"Oops I did it again"
It was ok though because
"Life in plastic, it's fantastic"
I allowed myself to be an object
"Oh baby, baby"
It's was ok though cuz...
"Bitches ain't shit but hoes and tricks"

And then the
Blurred lines
That led to #metoo

But the lines were blurred because, I was told
"I'm a slave for you..."
I just wanted connection and I heard...
"They only talk to her because she looks like a total prostitute"
And
"Girl you look good won't you back that ass up"
"Knock that pussy out, yeah get them
Out yeah"

All my brothers were drinking shots of violence toward women so I accepted that as "That's just how guys are..."

My societal worth became attached to me being an object, right, cuz...
"My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard"

Those drinks were so good
I was so drunk that I didn't even realize I was
"Chained to the rhythm"

My inner voice became harder to hear
I thought I was listening to myself and my purpose
But I was sometimes just in the cycle of what had been programmed
Into my brain from the tonic of popular culture
It was ok though, right?

Because everyone was doing it...

I had to learn to get sober
I had to deprogram
I had to get clean
AA
Came to me
Absolute Authenticity
Was my new drink

I fell in love with purity
Could no longer be pulled by empty scenes on the screen
I couldn't drink that drink
I could no longer sip on violence and throw it up on the ones I loved
That was not who I wanted to be
So I gave it up

I've been sober for a while now
And sometimes I feel like a baby
When the only tv I want to consume is Winnie the Pooh movie or Planet earth
And the only music I want to hear is 432 hz
Except for one pop queen... I admit
Lizzo, I love her, for her stance makes me
Dance in so many ways...

I used to crave the drunkenness of TV dramas and empty songs
But now I crave the beauty of pristine scenes
And rhythms that make my cells dance in the knowing that they are alive

Yes

That is what I want to fill my cup with
That is the drink I want to drink for myself and share with all of humanity

So I have retired the popular ways
And moved into a much much better day

And don't get me wrong
When Brittany blasts on the radio I will most likely still sing a long... happily nostalgic...

For in my awareness, I am free
To enjoy, and choose, knowingly

Written by:
Elizabeth Loch

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