Lizzie Loch - My Soul Is Not For Sale

I drove up to this mansion, my heart beat was racin, In LA tryna make it
I grew up aspirin, My smart heart was wonderin, which way I'd be taken
Would this be my big break in? I was ready to take it, done with enslavement
Could this be my gig rake in?
Eyes steady no fakin, stepped into the sun on the pavement
My meeting was waiting, with an offer for me to receive, he said I'd be pleased

He opened the door, fore my knuckles got sore, welcomed me in eyes with a grin
I felt the marble floor, lifted my core, sat on fox fur near the door
He gave me a drink and said I must drink with a wink
I said, "I don't drink, but thank you" I blinked, again he said, "drink"
First red flag, but my tail still wagged, his drink may be his shrink
No judgment, I thanked
He told me the other girls drink, all the big names, so I should rethink
I felt this is not what I think, and then he gave me another wink
And he went on complimenting me, in all that he sees
My potentiality, to be on the big screen, he said he could help me
I said really
And he made a call, to set up a shoot, with me and a big woot woot
So I said, "cool, thank you"
Then he said, "Don't be a fool"
"Every favor comes with a cost, I'll help you be a star and not get lost
It's an easy price you see, just get down on your knees, two times a week
With me, in my mansion, here happily, I'm a nice guy, I have family!"

My tummy was in knots, not happily, rapidly my chest felt more angirly
It was disgusting to me, as he told me all the girls who had done the same
And it led to their fame

This man who was established as grand was promisin me, my dreams
If I got down on my knees to satisfy he
I thought the only man I would get down on my knees for to fulfill my dreams is god
And I don't even think he is a man
But I didn't say that out loud. In fact, I didn't say much at all
I hit a wall, slowly I left before I would fall
I stumbled to my car, out of breathe, dizzy for the fizzy dream
Was this the world I had my heart set on as a child? I screamed!
Vehemently in rage for I thought this was my knightley sage
Escorting me to my mighty wage
Instead I was granted a calamity, disastrously, nervously
I clutched onto the wheel, nauseously holding in the sickening feel

I saw what it would be like if I had given in
A rich life of fancy toys with a pain behind my grin
It was all right there for me on a platter
I could have used the money, working two jobs, but it didn't matter
It was meaningless for me to make an empty splatter
Clitter clatter clitter clatter clitter clatter
The noise was all to much, I was valued at how much, I would go down

Some parts were tempting, I admit
But in that moment, it was my soul that I could not neglect
Yes, it was a moment I will never forget
I made a choice for myself for my soul, no regret
I left the mansion cave and never spoke another word to this man, I put it in the grave

I made a choice to pave my own way
And never contemplate giving my soul away
For an illusion of success that had me suppress
Who I truly am, so I tell that man
You don't have power over me, the money the success, I could care less
All I care about is what is within, and I don't have time to drink your gin

So goodbye to you, your not welcome in my life
I sure as hell hope you don't have a wife
But I'm going to let you handle your own strife
No need to deprive or contrive

I'm over here doing life on the thrive
Cuz I'm choosing to be fully alive

Oh and thank you for all you taught me
So I could see with more clarity
To discern the parts of life that are not me

Cuz now, like a bird, I fly free
Not trapped by the illusion of a pretty fantasy
For the dream of my soul is where lies the true beauty

So I'mma let that be

Written by:
Elizabeth Loch

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