Timmy Little - Off His Meds (Raw Demo Version)

I remember when my innocence, still did exist
Until I lost it on my adolescent journey to fit in, yea
I soon became a person who was built on impression
Desperate to let them hoodlums know that I'm always down for some mayhem
Drinking and drugging, yea, whatever it takes for you to love me
A walking cliché, Dad was tough on me, and Mommy didn't hug me
Started as a needy baby with ADHD and that led me
To teenage abortion, college dropout, failed suicide, then an H fiend
That's a long list of excess baggage sinning and living
Shit, I been giving grief to the folks who conceived me to begin with
Been making mommy sick since the womb then again as an infant
As if my flaws were parasitic and they just couldn't get rid of it
That's why

I am the psycho who lost his head
I might go off the deep end again
Lightbulb burst it's dark in my head
Crazy white boy's off his meds again
I am the psycho who lost his head
I might go off the deep end again
Lightbulb burst it's dark in my head
Crazy white boy's off his meds again

When I was young, I didn't even know at the time
That I was already a prisoner who's locked in his mind
Like an escape room but the exit here is so hard to find
I've been looking for a way to leave since ninety-nine, damn right
That's when it came to light things weren't right in my mind
That I was living with this fear inside, that haunted me the entire time
Wearing me down, tearing me down, bottling my aggression
Buried the bottle deep inside and grabbed a bottle of Perc's instead
Cause I needed drugs to survive the shitty life I had made
Living home till damn near thirty with two kids I couldn't raise
Drugs were not the problem they were more a symptom I could blame
The real problem was the mental health declining in my brain

I am the psycho who lost his head
I might go off the deep end again
Lightbulb burst it's dark in my head
Crazy white boy's off his meds again
I am the psycho who lost his head
I might go off the deep end again
Lightbulb burst it's dark in my head
Crazy white boy's off his meds again

Am I insane, is there a sufficient head medicine reminiscent
Of Sudafed, Codeine to get some rest, with a decongestant, shit
My soul does not feel tortured, I feel whole but half mes bored
With life I do need more, but I'm too scared to fail, I can't afford it
I'll admit it, I want the fame and fortune, go to fancy award shows
Announce a winner at the Grammy's, maybe snag an award or two, who knows
The first half of my life I was an average Joe, too scared to blow
With my own thoughts trying to kill me, I couldn't imagine headlining shows
When only wifey has my back, head spinning bro, you already know
I'd never be here without you, the way I see it what's mine is yours
Your all my hope, I'm just a writer, producer, and artist, no more
The rest of me is filled with joy, but off my meds I will destroy
Myself

I am the psycho who lost his head
I might go off the deep end again
Lightbulb burst it's dark in my head
Crazy white boy's off his meds again
I'm the psycho who lost his head
I might go off the deep end again
Lightbulb burst it's dark in my head
Crazy white boy's off his meds again

Written by:
Timmy Little

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