MrDudeSir - Peace Of Mind

I'm pushing twenty it's the hardest of times
And I can't say you've crossed my mind
When you're there all the damn time
And I can't explain the hurt inside
But at least now I have peace of mind
And now here's a piece of mine
They would never really get it
Wanted something you went and did it
To god that's where you're headin
I love you man I never said it
I never expressed that and I regret it
I just hope you know that I meant it
I loved everything we went through
The best of times since I was a little kid
Finally can say I'm happy at least for a little bit
And I lost a brother a friend and a son
All in the course of a month
I miss your smile I remember it vividly
And I wonder if you're up there looking over me
Ah!
I think about it everyday
It's got me getting in the booth
Feeling the hurt and the pain
If I'm telling you the truth
I got all these thoughts inside of my mind
Try to picture you, think about if you had fear in your eyes
Try to breathe feel like I'm suffocating inside
Try to stay strong have faith in the one up above, the divine
Tell myself everything will be fine, take it one day at a time
Listen to him and look for the signs
Pray for you and know that I'll love you till the day that I die (day that I die)
I need you to know that I tried and
I hope at the end of the day it is peace that I find
Or maybe the negativity will always be a piece of my mind...
I wonder what Ill do if I can't find my way
And I know when I look to you it's a lie when I say that I'm not afraid
But I know you're looking to me to carry the name
And I will have a son
And I will name him Eric James
In memory of you and what we went through
I know you would be glad and have a smile on your face
While you're up there in heaven basking in forevers grace
I promise to you that one day I'll make it to fame
And make sure that everyone screaming your name
You say a lot for a man who can't say a word
No time for grief
All I do is work
One day we'll have everyone singing along
Put all of my pain in this song
Hopefully one day I'm spreading the message
There's a lot of pain I haven't mentioned
I got my hoodie on I'm looking up to the sky
Maybe I can be the one
My fear always said I had to run
You watched me write three albums
Took that long to overcome
I became a different person after it's all said and done
I owe it all to you, may you live forever in my son…
I put the words on the paper
The paint on the canvas
I build up in anger and yell out
"This isn't right!"
I'm looking for answers, get lost inside my mind
I give my heart into these lines
Ah!
I wish I woulda known there wasn't time then
Living it to the fullest when
You were here and alive
Back before you ever died
Goin to explore in high places
Crawling in caves and
Wouldve cherished every second I had
Wish you could still be here when I'm becoming a dad
My kids would have someone to look to
Same as I did when I looked to you
My life is forever changed
Every day so dark and grey
All of those days I looked out at the rain
Begging god for a second chance
To go back and do it again
Damn…
I wonder what I will do if I never find my way
And I know when I look to you it's a lie when I say that I'm not afraid
But I know you're looking to me to carry the name
And I will have a son
And I will name him Eric James
In memory of you and what we went through
I know you would be glad and have a smile on your face
While you're up there in heaven basking in forevers grace
I promise to you that one day I'll make it to fame
And make sure that everyone screaming your name

Written by:
Christian Canterbury

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