JayCab - Solitude

They say you'll always play the villain in somebody's story
And I bet every chapter I'm placed in that category
All for the sake of bliss
Often it takes a risk
Who prays for the Devil?
Who checks up on the therapist?
The silence grew though my destiny is arriving soon
I was using rap just to hide my wounds
Out in public socially awkward
I'm too consumed
I'm in the club thinking 'bout my room
Yeah what's a conspiracy theory about yourself? (What they call that?)
Anxiety
Or cutting out the toxic people let's call it sobriety
It's been a minute since I replenished their taste upon tongue
I was holding on by the thread they strung me along from
But elevation through separation says cut it off
Hesitation cuz memories often keep me feeling lost
So here it goes I know it's time
I'll die the villain in your book
But I'm the living hero in mine
I'll be fine
I see you calling me
I'm lost in my ways
I reminisce the days
That take me away
What am I to do?
If it bothers you
I'm happy in my Solitude
Hold up
I got a question
Why do I feel they prefer my depression?
Maybe they feel like I'm changing
No longer somebody controlled with attention
Bitch I been good on my own
I hope that you find what I'm on
Misery loves company so no I'm not surprised if you don't
That self love was shelter through failure, come on
I can excel you through moments you struggle through on your own
And just think
So many took off cuz I was too caught
Up in trying to make a better life than in the one I was brought
I seen deaths
I seen fights
I seen cuffs
I seen lights
I know pain
I know change
I know crying through the night
I've had a brother leave the club only seconds before a massacre
I used to question God on this road I'm only the passenger
I digress but never foolishly (Nah)
I'm so ahead of my time
I've yet to meet the person that I used to be
Assuming he's only human moving through bluest seas
Trying not to drown
I got a feeling that he'll make it out
Come on
I see you calling me
I'm lost in my ways
I reminisce the days
That take me away
What am I to do?
If it bothers you
I'm happy in my Solitude
I see you calling me
I'm lost in my ways
I reminisce the days
That take me away
What am I to do?
If it bothers you
I'm happy in my Solitude

Written by:
Jason Cabrera

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