Shinigami/K - Heavy

I'm not ready, my thought's heavy, my heart's weak, but brain's a freak
Got issues plenty, should get tested clinically
I think I have borderline split personality
Coupled with I guess ADHD, Anxiety
Attacks are really bad, I'm praying I don't panic
Cuz if I cross the line, there could be more damage
If only I could, overcome my fear damn it
I wouldn't have had to, pick this mic and start ranting
Pen to pad I try to jot down every thought I have
But, all of them are dark so my pages they keep turning black
I try to tackle every fucking issue that I ever had
My sin of attention is pushing me to the stage, so now I rap

Heavy
My mind is always
Heavy
On the inside I feel
Empty
My mind is always
Heavy, Heavy, Heavy

I'm trying to get my life on track, now Karma's catching up
Every bad decision I made, now I think I am out of luck
Overconfidence fucks me over, but I still can't overcome
I try to see the bright side! Optimistic? No, delusional!
Every night I go to bed, I lie under the sheets
Over thinking at its peak, on Everest, thirty thousand feet
It's really cold, I'm on my own, I feel alone and weak
A nervous breakdown up my spine, it sneakily, tries to creep
Got responsibilities, I can't let go and rest
Insecurities feel like spiders, I am in a web
Hanging on to sanity, with a rope around my neck
Somebody please tell me how will, I escape my head?
(Aagghh!)

Heavy
My mind is always
Heavy
On the inside I feel
Empty
My mind is always
Heavy, Heavy, Heavy

My feelings aren't inane, but I might just be insane
I'm tired of these issues, I'm tired of running away
But they've been embedded in me, since a young age
So I'ma stand up to them, address 'em like a mail
Toxic masculinity is in my pocket, in my jeans
I even tried bleach, but I, still can't get it cleaned
I cage my emotions, then I, shove them in deep
Hence, When I'm on the mic you, only get a peek
You just say my heart is cold, my EQ is low
But you fuckers don't know, what I had to go through to become someone with no
Conscience or remorse, no, I ain't got no remote
I dump a bitch and you, there to stick a fork, cuz bitch you like to poke

Heavy
My mind is always
Heavy
On the inside I feel
Empty
My mind is always
Heavy, Heavy, Heavy

Heavy
My mind is always
Heavy
On the inside I feel
Empty
My mind is always
Heavy, Heavy, Heavy

Written by:
Karan Khadka

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