avenglow - proximity

Feels like it's happening all over again
I thought after that last song that this had ended
But I guess I was wrong because we're back where we've been
But in a different way this time
It's just hard to explain because
You were never mine
So I knew that it was fine
But when you look at her the way you do
I find myself in your eyes
Staring up the stairway falling
Deeper into dream-filled skies
But I apologize

So if you see me looking at my shoes
When she's standing next to you
That's why
I know you probably won't notice but
If I'm unnaturally focused
That's why
Maybe a piece of my heart was gifted but left twinkling
Winking at passerby
But it just digs up all these thoughts again
So if I could excuse myself so I can
Breathe
Cause the proximity is killing me

It's killing me

I wrote what happened all down to myself
I looked up to the highest place and
Left it on the shelf but she
Took it back down and flipped through to her perusal
She didn't listen to my refusal
And so we both saw
The happy and the sad
All the good and all the bad
On the floor crying
And when you talked about dying
The struggle for forgiveness and a
Beautiful heart in minor chords
And I've tried to ignore but it's like
I've gone through this before

So if you see me looking at my shoes
When she's standing next to you
That's why
I know you probably won't notice but
If I'm unnaturally focused
That's why
Maybe a piece of my heart was shifted in conversation
In relation to goodbye
But it just digs up all these thoughts again
So if I could excuse myself so I can
Breathe
Cause the proximity

It's messing with my head
Making me forget
I forgive you
And so I hope you know
Though I can't stay this close
I forgive you

So if you see me looking at my shoes
When she's standing next to you
That's why
I know you probably won't notice but
If I'm unnaturally focused
That's why
I know that you'll keep living your life without me
And I'll keep living mine
But it just digs up all these thoughts again
So if I could excuse myself so I can
Breathe

Written by:
Olivia Lessel

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