Alwayslukky - Shower Thoughts

Everybody always wanna talk behind my back, uhh
I don't understand it, maybe I should put my mask on
I can't trust nobody, I don't know what I've been thinking
Opening the front door just to see my father drinking
Every day is different but I'm drowning in my tears
Every night I'm praying that the pain will disappear
I'm sorry mama that I didn't know I broke your heart
I should've left him earlier I wish I could restart
I didn't see his alcoholic problems 'til you told me
I didn't know what loving was until you fucking showed me
Summer 2019 that's the time when I discovered
I wanna be a rapper and make music like my brother
Music is the only place where I can show my struggle
I knew that if I opened up I'd make it double-trouble
Summer 2018 when I tried to kill myself
Tried to save my grandmother while crying for some help
Nobody would save me, parents they betrayed me
All the pain I got that day I know that shit would change me
Now I'm slowly walking down the street, feeling empty
Deepest hope that I will be dead, before I'm twenty
Nobody can save my life, see me as a waste of time
I'm forever falling in this dark hole I will never climb
I'm just going deeper, will it ever end?
Slowly getting weaker, losing all my friends
I don't understand this shit, like
What did I do?
Why am I the only one?
I'm feeling like a fool
I wrote a lot of songs to you that I wanted to show you
All of them were made of love cause they were all about you
They still all exist but I don't wanna show you
I know that we've been really close, but really I don't know you
I'm kinda scared of love, they tell me it's the art
I think I am convinced, I need someone to warm my heart, please

Written by:
Lukas Stenvall

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