G-Shaw - Addiction

My name is G-Shaw and I'm an addict
Up to now I've completed 10 steps
This is the 11th

College degree with a passion for music
My parents don't believe I can do it
I'm finnin to do it not finnin like fish
Music addiction not my wish
They say I don't have a shot can't swish
Music addiction not my wish
This opportunity I can not miss
Music addiction not my wish
Will I believe them give up and quit
Or act like a Lambda and don't quit
When this happened wasn't sure what to do
This here somethin' that I haven't been through
Started rappin' after my degree
Had no idea how to be an emcee
Learning how to rhyme and manage my time
Gotta catch up I'm really behind

Physical pain and emotional pain
Are experienced in the same part of the brain
When people suffer emotional rejection
The same part of the brain will light up
As if you stuck them with a knife
Some say Addictions begin with pain
All addictions are attempts to soothe the pain
So the real question is
Not why the addiction but why the pain
What you usually will find is emotional loss or trauma

Missed my college roommates wedding cuz of my addiction
Had no money to go our relationship different
Caught in my addiction I did not RSVP
I forgot about it Dan the fault belong to me
Go to Sam's wedding but a brother homeless
Will takes me to the wedding Will knows this
Staying with Will at Penn State I'm homeless
I'm jobless, hopeless and I'm homeless
No money in the bank no place to call my own
Havin' constant visions of the microphone
Writin' rhymes even though I deal with tough times
Even cried myself to sleep a few times
Mom gave me fifty for Sam's envelope
Had to keep ten of it I was dead broke
Now I can only give Sam forty bucks
In this position like a vacuum sucks
Mom gave me fifty for Sam's envelope
Had to keep ten of it I was dead broke
Now I can only give Sam forty bucks
In this position like a vacuum sucks

Whether it's a sex addiction or internet
Relationship, shopping or work addiction
These are all attempts to get away from distress
All the twisting and bending we go through
Just not to be ourselves for a few hours causes distress
Why would somebody not want to be themselves
Because they are in too much distress and in too much pain
It originates from pain

My addiction's bad I've done many shows
That nobody came to support and see me flow
Only thing I could do was gain composure
Put the stage on fire cuz I gain exposure
All these shows in New York City
Bus ride dolo nobody wit me
Lose thoughts of witty feelin' self pity
Wonder why there no support from my city
Dealin' with this time and time again
Friends I get no support from them
Alienated cuz talent and skills
Situation like landfills
Stopped carin' if people come to my show
People support people that they don't know
Stopped carin' if people come to my show
Next thing I know my addiction grow

Whatever you do
Don't try an escape your pain but be with it
Because the attempt to escape from pain
Is what creates more pain
That is the reality with addiction
But the question is
How can people be with their pain
Only if they sense some compassion from somebody
Only when compassion is present
Will people allow themselves to see the truth
So Addicted people

Written by:
Gregory Shaw II

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