JToni - JToni's Word

It’s been a minute since the last time I wrote
The last time we spoke, was the last time we spoke
I been alone for sometime and I been looking for some hope 
Internalized all my struggles when I started to smoke
That’s the way that I cope, but I know it ain’t healthy for me
Young nigga on his own, but unhappy with this college degree 
Thought I would get what I wanted but what I wanted ain’t free
They told me cash was important but you know credit set you free 
I started to believe but I also had doubts
It’s hard ass living when you coming out from the south 
I’m from the bottom of the map, Orleans Parish to be exact
Got displaced from my home and I gotta put Austin on my back
And these days I look back, I made so many mistakes 
So many chances I could’ve had if I learned to push the brakes 
How I grew up i worked hard, I don’t believe in no breaks 
I been all gas from the start that’s why I move at this pace 
But since we last spoke, I can’t say life been the best
One of my niggas committed suicide and it’s been heavy on my chest 
I had a baby out of wedlock afraid I couldn’t give her my best 
I went broke so many times sitting up trying to reinvest 
COVID came around and I felt a tightness in my chest
Government shut down suddenly life didn’t make sense 
People lost they jobs and then quickly lost they cents
Social media got addictive and niggas lost they sense
Since we last spoke, It’s been a minute but things change 
I’m just hoping I can face the things that’s hard to maintain 
They love you when you up and don’t say shit to you when you down
I lost my way for a second and got thrown in lost and found
I confess that I’m a hoe I know these hoes can’t even stand me 
I never said that I was perfect but none of these hoes can understand me
So many women said they loved me but couldn’t tell me why they do 
Not surprised a lot of them fixated on what they get outta you
I spent this time evaluating I’m a Lil more conscious baby 
I got a whole lot of focus I’m twice as much concentrated 
2020 left me devastated, this year done drove me crazy
But through all the ups and downs I never once got lazy 
I just hope the dues repay me, I been paying dues forever
Since the last time we spoke, we didn’t have plans on being together
I was down at my lowest
I was crashing out on sofas
I did Lyft for extra change
I did my best to give notice
Since the last time we spoke, God and I have grown the closest
I done took so many L’s, I know my W’s are approaching 

Written by:
JUSTIN FIALLOS, KENNARD BOYKIN

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