Hasani Hawthorne - Difficult As It Sounds

They ask me am I'm Okay
They ask me if I'm Happy
Are they asking me that cuz all of the shit that's been thrown at me
My hair's a little nappy
I haven't shaved for days
I'm tryna make the pain go away with razorblades
And somehow I stay afraid
Of these thoughts I barricade
Wanna kill myself, Feel betrayed
No one comes to aid
So park me in the shade
Let my body fade away
You can text me up in heaven if you had something to say
Cuz way to very often, I see myself in a coffin
Why GOD never answer me
I know he hears me calling
Or maybe he's just stalling
Cuz the Devil's always plotting
He's at my door now
I can hear the demons knocking
Can anybody save me
I wanna take my life
Am I crazy? Maybe
But Fuck it man
I hate my life
I have too many wrongs
And I'll never make them right
So they say just smile on
Fake it Till you make it right
As Difficult As It Sounds

I don't wanna live forever
I just wanna live for better
Been through the stormy weather
Looking for a buried treasure
I know that Karma loves me
And I wish I never met her
But these are my final words
So I'm leaving you this letter
It's hard for me to say
I don't know if I will live long
At night I stay awake
In the morning put a grin on
I'm hearing GOD say
That he's peeping what I've been on
Just open up the gates
Even though I know I did wrong
They ask me if I'm Okay
They ask me if I'm happy
But my minds a little wacky
And my eyes are getting baggy
Not sleeping too well
Not eating too well
Guess I'm waiting on Satin to come creep me into HELL
Cuz I can't find a reason why
Every night I bleed and cry
Praying that I see the light
But feel like I need to DIE
Sometimes I hold the 9
And just wanna blow my mind
Acting like I never cry... But wanna DIE-ehh
Never-mind

Written by:
Hasani Hawthorne

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