Eric James - Suicide Note

Addiction in my life but I think I'll be alright
Suicide is tempting more with every single night
I love to be alive but there's not much in this life
I need a different situation it's not that I wanna die
I need different pace of living and that might be that I fly
Cuz lately I been contemplating every thought in mind
And I'm not gonna lie when I say death is on my mind
I'm not gonna lie when I say Death is on my mind
I need to find myself and who I am
Maybe be alone cuz I ain't a good friend
Maybe be alone that's what I'm destin to be
Lookin at myself "your fat, you aren't a king"
You gotta put on a fake smile for people to like you
Cuz your scared of another person to say they dispite you
You gotta write a letter cuz it's better in your dreams
So instead of living life you'd rather do it while you sleep
So what's the difference between now and permanently
I'm feeling Tears fallin down my face as I speak
I gotta hold 'em back though
Cuz I can't be weak
I gotta hold 'em back though cuz I can't be weak
It's a shame I feel like this cuz I wish it was different
I feel bad that I write this but it's how you gon listen
Yet you think it's a song when this is how I am livin
I wasn't given any talent had to get it through growth
Scared to be myself like I was doing the most
Cuz the ones you think are real the ones that hurt you the most
One day they blowing up your phone then the next they a ghost
Addiction in my life but I think I'll be alright
Suicide is tempting more with every single night
I love to be alive but there's not much in this life
I need a different situation it's not that I wanna die
I need different pace of living and that might be that I fly
Cuz lately I been contemplating every thought in mind
And I'm not gonna lie when I say death is on my mind
I wake up every morning wishing that I never did
I don't wanna die, but I don't wanna live
I'm waking up to gloomy days, it won't get clearer than this
I get bored and crave attention then I hope for a kiss
I will never get it though and that's the way that it is
I'm tired of waking up lonely with nobody to side
I've been patient but slowly I'm beginning to cry
I feel like death will uphold me I'm not ready to die
But because you oppose me now I'm leaving this life
Don't act like you don't know me when I'm passing you by
I just wish I was growing 'stead of falling inside
You can try to control me, and tell me that I'll be fine
But I won't cuz I been trying to get outta this
I'm mad at this, I recently been out of it
I feel like I'm inadequate, I'm hopin this how bad it gets
Cuz if Not I'll probably put myself right out of it
The latter bit says that I'll take all my time and really try to focus on me
Maybe be a better human for the time being
That's a vision that y'all see and I ain't see it
That's a vision that y'all see but I ain't see it
Addiction in my life but I think I'll be alright
Suicide is tempting more with every single night
I love to be alive but there's not much in this life
I need a different situation it's not that I wanna die
I need different pace of living and that might be that I fly
Cuz lately I been contemplating every thought in mind
And I'm not gonna lie when I say death is on my mind

Written by:
Eric Gandee

Publisher:
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid

Lyrics powered by Lyric Find