Jakob Widows - Carnival

Fighting with my demons that are trapped inside
Looping up and down on this evil ride
Feeling like a monster when I go and hide
Happyness unreachable this uphill climb
Blurry is my mind, you don't wanna play these games
Not like Super NES, there's no princess here to save
Got my mind being whipped, to these meds I am their slave
Like a coin my moods flip, and these thoughts are getting grave
And I don't want that, don't want my mom to have to say goodbye
So I show my teeth and fake my smile so she don't ask why
She shouldn't have to be a victim of my unsafe ride
Feel like flying off even when the seatbelts gripping tight
Tighter than the air, density, they bury me
Deep within my grave, down as if I'm 6 feet deep
Choking on the pressure, loud, you don't need to see
Outside still remain sane, it's killing me
Killing me on the inside, killing me on the outside
Everyone's gonna realize, everyone's starting to ask why
Why am I acting so weird, like, why are you asking me outright?
Why does this conversation always have to be a fight?
Fighting with my demons that are trapped inside
Looping up and down on this evil ride
Feeling like a monster when I go and hide
Happyness unreachable this uphill climb
Take a trip inside my mind just to show you what it's like
Feel so distant on this ride, numbing thoughts up floating high
Like the knot that I just tied when I say I'm doing fine
What's the truth and what's a lie is what comes to blur the line
The mimic in the mirror telling me to act right, so I
Paint a smile, Joker, spread it out with a knife
What goes on inside my mind, they don't see the other side
Tempered thoughts on the inside, they don't need to ask why
Anxiety cripples, got my mind feeling fickle
Think imma meet my maker, greeting Death with his sickle
But to some may be a nightmare, maybe I'm a little sicker
Dreaming of a life where, maybe I can make a killing
The thoughts are daunting on me, maybe I'm the villain
A mosquito 'round people with their happiness I'm stealing
And the pills are overpowering with their chronic symptoms
But maybe I'm not broken man, maybe it's the system
Fighting with my demons that are trapped inside
Looping up and down on this evil ride
Feeling like a monster when I go and hide
Happyness unreachable this uphill climb

Written by:
Jakob Widows

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