Northside Hollow - Still Here

Who are you when nobody watching
Too often I find myself lost in my head
I ain't really open to
Talking bout all of my problems
I'd probably wind up just popping
These drugs in my hand
I'm walkin these streets on my own
If you spotted me honestly
Go on and leave me alone
I can not tell you what I want but I know
It lies further than this place
That we call a home
I'd rather keep wondering on and on
Until all of a sudden I pause and I break
What matters is hundreds of others
Keep holding on to setting suns
That's shit that I hate
Going outside
Don't wanna go for ride
Don't want to open the blinds
Just don't wanna think about trying
Cause every time I try
I end up just lying in bed awake
Wishing for better days
Don't wanna medicate
This ADHD keep fucking with me
And I see it just ain't the same
Closing my eyes
Why would I even wanna try
Tell mom I'm gone
Don't wanna die
Know I'd feel better inside
Now I'm alone
Loneliness kills
Still
Can not stand being alone
But I love how it feels
Real
Maybe thats all that I want
To stop takin these pills
Still
Don't think I ever gon' stop
To be a lost cause
Promises cause scars
The kind that you know
That are never gon' heal
Don't think about me
Forgetting everything
You thought that I was
Nobody listening
This is just part of the reason
That I don't mind taking these drugs
Don't wait round no more
Feel like your killing me slow
Say that you're breaking it off
Don't understand what it cost
Taken my life and my soul
In love with the money
But I know that shit is something
I don't need
Hunits and hunits keep piling all on me
Know that they probably
Circling back for me
Dump out the back on me
Tell all brothers I'm coming home
Who are you when nobody watching
Too often I find myself lost in my head
I ain't really open to
Talking bout all of my problems
I'd probably wind up just popping
These drugs in my hand
I'm walkin these streets on my own
If you spotted me honestly
Go on and leave me alone
I can not tell you what I want but I know
It lies further than this place
That we call a home
I'd rather keep wondering on and on
Until all of a sudden I pause and I break
What matters is hundreds of others
Keep holding on to setting suns
That's shit that I hate
Going outside
Don't wanna go for ride
Don't want to open the blinds
Just don't wanna think about trying
Cause every time I try
I end up just lying in bed awake
Wishing for better days
Don't wanna medicate
This ADHD keep fucking with me
And I see it just ain't the same
Closing my eyes
Why would I even wanna try
Tell mom I'm gone
Don't wanna die
Know I'd feel better inside
Now I'm alone

Written by:
Northside Hollow

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