Natarowei - Salutations

Hi

Why do I feel this way
I just wanna be okay
But somehow I am not
And I have already laid the plot

I have been doing so well
Now I feel like I'm back in hell
Turmoil on the inside of me
How do I escape that
I don't know
What should I be
What should I do

I don't know which way to turn
I feel like I'm just screwed
I guess I'll just see it out
See myself out of the situation
But what the fuck is that even
Don't know what to call it
Or what to believe in

Maintaining my vision
Proceed with precision

Always inside of me
It is always there
Yeah and unfortunately I do actually care
Try not to worry much
But it is just my luck
Turns out I give a fuck

I don't know what to do about that
Because I'm caring a lot
And I'm like splat all over the floor
Oh god I want more
I really want more
I want way more than I ever have had before

What the fuck is coming up on the horizon
Oh look I can see
All of my dreams coming true
But can't feel it inside of me
I feel like I'm dying

I don't want to feel like this
It's like I'm crying on the inside
But no tears will come out of me
I feel so lost and now seems I am doubting me

Even though there's so many things I have the power to do
I am not doing a thing or two
I'm just sitting on millions
Which one do I pursue

I don't know where to start
I thought that I had grew
But apparently I haven't
I'm not fully utilizing my talent

All I can do is make music
And everything else is just sitting there completely unused
I don't know where to go

I have been overtaken by anxiety
My depression keeps on coming around to me
I always think that I'm better
But then I just sink again

Fake it til you make it as they say
So I guess I will just pretend
What the fuck
I need to be authentic so I can be myself again
But I am putting on fronts
Telling myself I'm okay
But I'm not
I really feel like shit
Like I am stuck

I need to get it together
My creative flow is endless
Yeah I'm clever
Now it just seems they have turned off the lever
And I will just weather the storm now

Been cut at the throat
Like I am dying
But that's not all she wrote
So I keep trying
I'm striving and striving and striving
But I am driving myself into a state of insanity

What do you want from me
I know just what I want
There's no compromising with me
My expectations are far too high of me
I cannot possibly meet them
And so I continuously let myself down

In isolation on lockdown
Antisocial as fuck
With eyes that act like a stun gun
They will knock you down
Do not look in my eyes

Do not look at me
Don't fucking look at me bitch

Yeah you know the sitch
Do not ever look into my eyes
And don't fucking touch me
If you are wise

Thinking I'm interested
Telling yourself lies

Written by:
Nata Rowei

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