JayteKz - Deep Skies
It ain't no secretI'm always vocal with the way I feel
I don't wanna' be alive depression's gonna' get me killed
Family says I need help
But I don't think they fucking get it
What I feel is carved inside my heart and it's deeply embedded
I, I, I wish it was that simple
I wish this made me stronger but instead its left me crippled
It's hard for me to smile
And when I do it's fabricated
I'm slowly breaking down
And my happiness is barricaded
I fucking hate this shit
Numb the pain by taking sips
Every time I'm sober I just
Wanna' slit my fucking wrists
Hoping I will bleed to death
Choking 'till I lose my breath
Father, please forgive me, but I can't go on within my flesh
Death seems like the only route
Only place where peace is found
Mom and Dad I love you, and I'm sorry If I let you down, but I can't take no more
My heart is fucking torn
I wish this was a nightmare, wish I was never born
I can hardly feel now
Every single day I'm going numb
I can only hope the end is near now
I don't wanna' stay, I wanna' run
No one understands these tears I shed now
No one understands the hell I'm in
Honestly just wish that I was dead now
Cannot bare this misery within
And dear Family
I know it's hard for you to listen
But this is how I feel, I hope that I can be forgiven
I feel imprisoned
And I don't know how to escape
Yeah I'ma victim of my own self-defeat and hate
I,I,I wish I wasn't fucked up
I,I,I wish that I could look up
I,I,I wish that I was lying to you
Wish that I was sharing smiles instead of fucking crying to you
I'm sorry for it all
But this broken heart is raw
I ain't got no where to turn to and I don't know who to call
Got no choice but to crawl
I can't stand up on my feet
Every time I fucking fall man I no longer wanna' breathe
Feel my soul getting weak
And my heart's getting heavy
I'm begging on my knees for the lord to come and get me
And when my time comes
All I ask is don't forget me
My purpose was fulfilled, I'm no longer feeling empty
I can hardly feel now
Every single day I'm going numb
I can only hope the end is near now
I don't wanna' stay, I wanna' run
No one understands these tears I shed now
No one understands the hell I'm in
Honestly just wish that I was dead now
Cannot bare this misery within
Written by:
Joel Serrano
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