Bratter - Explosion
FuckI feel like my head's about to explode
Will I be ok? I don't know
Prolly not but I need to be alone
Why don't I feel better when I'm alone?
I hate social interaction and it fucks with my head
I swear to god if I could, I'd spend all day in bed
But I'm forced to get up and get myself fed
And my parents ask me why I think I'm better off dead
I end up taking my anger on them
Stealing every chance that I have to be normal again
Robbing me of my freedom and my future
While the voices inside aren't even condemned
I can't stand it, I'm insane
All my life I've been in pain
For 19 years it's been the same
Wish I was lying (Lion) but this feeling's the main (mane)
I'm running out of options
I'm running out of answers
Y'all might find my body in the Tropic of Cancer
If you do, don't be sorry, I'll be fine with the Black Panther (R.I.P)
But realize that I exploded from all my anger
Even dropped out of college to try and get my mind right
Didn't think it made sense but it did in hindsight
Thought I'd be happier, I'd finally see the bright side
But then depression came back and hit me on my blind side
Smoking helps but it's only temporary
I need it most at night cause that's when my thoughts are scary
I like the feeling of getting high like a fairy
But maybe to really do that I need to find another bearing
Listen to my words
Listen to what the fuck I'm saying
This ain't for the camera
This no fucking game I'm playing
This is real life shit
This is what I'm fucking going through
You say I'm fucking crazy?
Yeah that's something we already knew
Written by:
Jonathan Bratter
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