BreeKay X Kasairi - Full of It

Everybody, everybody, everybody
Knows what they're doing
And I'm over here, I'm over here
Here just trying to figure it out
How everybody, everybody, everybody
Knows what they're doing
Or everybody, everybody, everybody's
Playing a part
And everybody's full of it
Still living at my parents house
I thought I would be on my own by now
And don't get me wrong, mom and dad are the best
But we all gotta grow up and move out
In the meantime, I'm still pretty new to this music thing
And everybody seems light years ahead of me
They're saying that my songs are amazing
But when it comes to placements
They pick the credentials instead of me
I want to write great music
And have people connect to it
But I'm steady trying to watch what I say in my songs
But I still want to be myself through it, and it's hard
And I don't want to look weak
So God is the only one who sees the full me
And the stuff that I try to forget, never mention
I guess a part of me still tries to fool me
I remember being 12 just wishing I would die
Feeling so nervous and scared all the time
Nobody ever knew what I was feeling inside
But nobody ever asked, so I pretended I was fine
And still to this day
I still feel the same sometimes
Uncertainty got me feeling anxious
But that's why I pray
Got to get away sometimes
To The Lord I'm running like a baby
'Cause no one really tells you
That you can set goals and accomplish them
And still feel like you're a failure
Graduate early, make the dean's list
It don't really mean a dang thing 2 years later
All that sustains me is God's grace and His love
He's the only one true validation
I just want to make him proud with contentment in him
And remind myself that on the daily, but it feels like
Everybody, everybody, everybody
Knows what they're doing
And I'm over here, I'm over here
Here just trying to figure it out
How everybody, everybody, everybody
Knows what they're doing
Or everybody, everybody, everybody's
Playing a part
And everybody's full of it
We're all called into His marvelous light
But the heart of it is part of being ready to fight these fears
'Cause I'm right here
Looking at life in the eye like I'm right here
Dealing with insecurities that I always fail to mention
Overanalyzing, just making me a mess
With weight on my mind, all day and all night
Constantly picking at what doesn't look right
So I eat and I eat 'cause I felt defeated
Had to eat everything so I felt completed
Just sick to my stomach
Decide to throw up
It's no longer a struggle I flushed it
And it all stops but thoughts still creep
'Cause I start to think about everything
Like, am I good enough
And there I go, comparing myself
'Cause I'm not as skinny, not as pretty, not as witty as the next chick
Then I got to check me, I start second guessing
'Cause I realized God's checkmate and there's no way I can escape
I know we've all been there, broken down somewhere
And it's so unfair
You can't talk to anyone, no one understands
No one feels your pain
You start to go insane
Smiles all fake
You can't catch your breath
You have nothing left
'Cause all you want to do is cry
But you can't tell anyone the real reason why
Why, why me
I, I need
Someone, something
But hang in there
And stay strong
And when you feel weak
Just pray on
I got to say that I've been through stuff too
But God is faithful and He loves you
Everybody, everybody, everybody
Knows what they're doing
And I'm over here, I'm over here
Here just trying to figure it out
How everybody, everybody, everybody
Knows what they're doing
Or everybody, everybody, everybody's
Playing a part
And everybody's full of it

Written by:
Brenda Kohn, Marissa Torres

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