Jwp - Retroactive

Wish there was a way to wish away all this shame
All these social networks they just enlighten the flame
While I'm watching my self worth flicker in front of my eyes
Send me spiralling in hurt through til the end of the night
Getting thoughts about my future and they bringing me back
Into a endless way of thinking that stabs me in the
I'm endlessly obsessive with the sadness inside of me
Although the merits of my prospects always seem to not bother me
All these long messages they say imma piece of shit
I don't care if you ain't meant it it's not even up in the air
Non-stop we argue constantly like coach and his favourite prodigy
The things I can't un-think are still things that shouldn't bother me
And how come when I think about you I think about ex-property
Year down the line I still think about in red
Like is it something inside of me was it something you said
By now I know it's not okay to think the way I did
I don't wanna hold me back
But I keep thinking I'll overreact
And when I keep on thinking this way
Maybe I'm better off holding my aim
You say you like to be alone that's not a problem
I'm sure that we can keep it that way
And when you like to hold me to a junction
And tell me that I'm the problem
I can plan a crash inside of the lane
And you feel like I never listen but when I'm tryna show work and you don't even acknowledge anything that you heard
And you pin it all on me when sure I have made some fault but you can't even say sorry for things that you have done that's absurd
I'm really tired I'm feeling reckless I'm getting worried bout things draw that your attention
We going out and I see them step in
My heart pounds and I'm worried bout your affection
I'm having panic attacks can't let them see me cry
Because I'm hurt I spill my heart out on a track
but to the people cos I'm vulnerable it seems to make me lack
I don't wanna hold me back
But I keep thinking I'll overreact
And when I keep on thinking this way
Maybe I'm better off holding my aim

Written by:
Jude Peters

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