The Chestnut Tree Cafe - Speaking My Truth

You know honestly, it just seemed like it would last forever
I'd be stuck in the past and locked out of heaven
And somehow I came upon this peculiar thing
And somehow some way my heart sings the song of the wise
It brought me from a kid on substances
To a beautiful young woman of substance
No longer am I living a sub-existence
Using my pen to make my life movements
Just looking for avenues of improvement
Do you see anywhere I have made a mistake?
Yo, please come, let's talk as we sit by the lake
Let's sit and talk about what we should create
Let's talk about love and what we think of fate
Been on the path since I was a youngin like fuckin' eight
My pain taught me how to appreciate
The land that I walk upon and the food that I ate
Last week, last night
Every fight that I've had with me myself and I
Taught me that both joy and pain have power inside
Taught me that my mind and heart don't need to always collide
I confide in God like every day
To me now, that is the only way
Yo I'm on that spiritual payday
Fuck all that mayday
But I was dramatic
And now my shit's fantastic
I'm a love fanatic
On that mental acrobatic
Yo, I got a lot to do I got a lot to say
I listen to my guides like every day
I promise on it all they show the way
Yo, imma have to go away for a while
To remember that careless smile
Remember my efforts are always worth it
So imma just keep workin' it
Continue doing my best, forgetting the rest
It doesn't have to be so damn complicated
Yo I spent seven years so fucking faded
If I could just say what I mean
If I could really come clean
I don't feel like I have to be seen
By anyone but my Maker
I focus on Creator
I focus on Peace
I focus on those in my city's streets
I focus on the needs of our society
Many things but I know I'm not an angel
I'm just learning how to be me from a different angle
Can't believe this is it but it takes two to tango
I should be looking up to above, figuring out that self-love
But in this moment I'm just gathering myself
Learning how to love me like everybody else
I am worthy of a cleanse, I am worthy of a Benz
But sometimes I just feel so goddamn tense
How can I move forward when I'm on quicksand
But the shit I am on, it feels like a handstand
Throughout this night, I made a band but is it worth it?
Is it truthful? Or will it serve me later?
Or am I just jumping into a motherfucking crater?
Or am I my biggest hater? Can't tell you for sure
All I know is I know it is now, this is my moment
Making my statement and I am fucking owning it!
I have power to change, this is the age of information
My life is in alignment, the shit is in formation
Yeah, I'll be alright, yeah I will be okay
I gotta take a deep breath for tomorrow day

Written by:
Arwen Roussell

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