Nevv - Special (feat. Christian Jaquez)

I just wanna tell you that I know to much but I've seen too little
I just wanna tell you I can see that you're hurt and you're stuck in middle
I know that you're frustrated from the shit that you have been through
But you would think I'm trying to help you start a clinic how I'm trying to give you all my patience
Why can it be fifty-fifty why's it got to be so complicated
Im just saying you're the only girl I'm praising
I just pray to god that every minute that I spend with you is never fucking wasted
Never wasted
But we keep going only back and fourth like racquet sports, it's draining me
"I love you" isn't something that you have to force but you keep slamming doors you're always angry
This is something that I can't afford it's really breaking me
I'm breaking bad like Henizberge on AMC, I'm basically
Tailor made for your own emotions, you don't reap what you sow
So i sow trying to save every tearing seam that you tear voluntarily
Goddamn I think I'm going off the deep end
And I don't mean to yell and get so sensitive but I think it is just a reflex
Cause when I reflect on regrets I see red,
I'm trying to lend a hand but you ain't reaching long enough like the arms on a T-Rex
Ian get a grip, take a deep breath try to reset but it sucks
Knowing that your love was built off some lies and some secrets
When tell me that you love me it would spike any polygraph
Spite when you're talking
I never wanted that
We just go in circles like we driving in culdesaces
Dice when you throw them fast
Love is like a fart if you have to fucking force it then it might be a load of crap

Thought you would stay with me
Thought that we could grow
You just keep on playing me
Keep me on the low
Baby, don't forget that you're not
So special
So special
You're not
So special
Not special

Now we at each other's throats like we both barbers
And all you do is yell insults and it's so heartless
And all that does is provoke every song that I wrote that may seem harsh and-
So disrespectful you don't want this commitment
You don't fuck these other guys but you want that fucking option there
And if I disagree then I'm out your life is that option fare
And if I argue for my side then yell like some auctioneer
Let me stop it here
Let me paint a picture like I'm Vango, you say that I hear you
But I never listen fuck it maybe I should cut it off just chop my ear
Cause they ain't useful right
I don't use them right
Then you say let's just see where this goes like an Uber ride
But It's been six months and you still don't want exclusive ties
And I'm the crazy one cause I think you're screwing guys (Shit)
But I ain't trying to throw shade or even scrutinize your name
I'm just trying to tell the truth and the truth is I'm just insecure
Cause I've been fucked over time and time again and the time before
So I've been looking at are situation as a pessimist because my heart is still kinda sore
But what I shoulda seen despite all the arguments
You became the best thing in my life and all I've done is augment every time we've fought
Screamed and hollered shit
I should've been more positive Instead I was so ominous and now my consequence
The obnoxious bunch of insecurities that just clog the shit
Clog the air for my self esteem
Awareness for what I means
To care for my cherished queen
I'm embarrassed so terribly
Barren and fucking bleak
Stripped of merit and dressed in the Burberry of disbelief
My psalms are harry and so mystique
Baby I'm so sorry for everything

Thought you would stay with me
Thought that we could grow
You just keep on playing me
Keep me on the low
Baby, don't forget that you're not
So special
So special
You're not
So special
Not special
You're not

Written by:
Nevv, Christian Jaquez

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