pō'edik - When Time Flies

When I take one step forward
Take 10 steps back
Yeah, I take one step forward
Take 10 steps back
When I take one step forward
Take 10 steps back
Yeah, we take one step forward
Take 10 steps back
Became an addict to overthinking
Thoughts like a drug
Kush got me on the ceiling
Only time I can unplug
What a shame when loved ones ain't showing you no love
And strangers running your name right through the mud
Now that's tragic
Beyond average
Lotus flower got them thinking that I'm fragile
But these words and the flow got them following like cattle
Sometimes I wish that
My brain wasn't always so conflicted
Cause see I always struggle with selfless decisions
Who might I hurt?
Who might I disappoint?
Wish saying no was as easy as flipping coins
So much shit I wanna tell my father
Took a semester off from school and I never wanna go back
Only want the best for me it's important that you know that
Music makes me feel like I could somehow have an impact
Reach the souls of the people who feel like they've lost it
If you've been given a gift there's no reason you should ignore it
So don't ignore this
Just be patient
Me and my dreams are becoming acquainted
Born creative
Miss underrated
Heartbeats turn to words my souls translated
Like when I'm writing these words divine powers speaking through me
People who barely listen will swear that they knew me
Some do this with passion
Others just for the glory
A fourth grader in the back of the class writing allegories
Just telling my story
Speaking my truth make me feel like I'm soaring
This ain't no time for giving up
I'm too busy exploring
Like the world there's so much of myself I've yet to discover
Just tryna make the shot before life's final buzzer
Working harder than the rest like Kobe
Say you realer than the rest than show me
From my experience the biggest haters are the ones you call your homies
Call themselves original but really wish they could clone me
The whole world wanna piece of me, but I get nothing in return
These are the lessons I've learned
It's like womanhood knocked and I had to respond
I been tryna put puzzle pieces in places they don't belong
Life got dark and cold like the middle of October
2018 I hated who I was sober
Just a girl wishing she had her mother
I've had to fight the monsters in my closet no more hiding under covers
One step forward take 10 steps back
Feeling like my sanity's under attack
No I won't go back
I said I won't go back
One step forward take 10 steps back
Feeling like my sanity's under attack
No I won't go back
I swear I won't go back
Why does she cry
Late at night when heaven sings
Some days it feels like these walls are caving in

Written by:
Julissa Bernabe

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