Calumet Hawk - epipHanies (feat. Laila Rkibi)

I-I-I don't even know what the fuck I'm doin' here (even know)
I-I-I don't even know how long I'll stay here (even know, for real)

When you see me online
Actually I'm offline in my mind
You're no more a part of my life
I'm only focusin' on finding my light
When you see me online (online)
Actually I'm offline in my mind (my mind)
You're no more a part of my life (my life)
I'm only focusin' on finding my light

Lonely nights owe me time
Soul get tired, lost its pride
We been like on the floor hit by tiles (tiles)
Hid our blood like we cleaned it with towels (uh-huh)
Had to really stay up like the melanin
Tho life darkly did fall like Phaethon (for real)
I was at the bottom among lightnings (uh-huh)
I still get haunted by the thunders' din (yeah)
I been so hurt I been bleedin' but keep it
Within like hemorrhages, feel next to pits (for real)
Shit, tho, now hold up, I will not vent (vent)
I had to grow up 'fore I was even six (yeah)
Learnt how to go on, but at what fucking cost? (yeah)
My anxiety's destroyed me, I can't trust a thing (yeah)

When you see me online (online)
Actually I'm offline in my mind (my mind)
You're no more a part of my life (my life)
I'm only focusin' on finding my light (for real)
When you see me online (oh yeah, online, oh)
Actually I'm offline in my mind (oh, in my mind, oh)
You're no more a part of my life (oh yeah, my life, oh)
I'm only focusin' on finding my light

Yeah, any shield could prolly bend
Any fear could prolly win
They tryna hamper on ya
You gon' raze 'em over
They will scratch their own defense
When shit is gettin' too tense (tense)
Who could ever have a plan? (plan)
Look at your back (back)
People got daggers mouldin'
They got handles for them
You can never know when they will stab (stab, for real)
And then whenever they do (do, uh-huh)
You comprehend nobody stayed true (uh)
Each time you bled nobody was there
That's added nothing but incertitude, yeah (uh)
Already too many knocks to face (yeah)
Need peace, when they beset, you droop and (yeah)
You blame yourself for trustin' them (yeah)
Realize you prolly never knew them (knew)

When you see me online (online)
Actually I'm offline in my mind (my mind)
You're no more a part of my life (my life)
I'm only focusin' on finding my light (for real)
When you see me online (oh yeah, online, oh)
Actually I'm offline in my mind (oh, in my mind, oh)
You're no more a part of my life (oh yeah, my life, oh)
I'm only focusin' on finding my light

Finding my light, finding my light
Ooh, finding my light
Friends you think you have
Fade away when you need them
Yeah, and they make you bleed again
You know, it is what it is
But, you know
Oh, you know
That just been
Epiphanies

Written by:
Laila Rkibi, Matteo Favaron

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