Big Brainiac - Heaven's Gate

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I've been stressing for so long about getting it on my own
I've been stressing about whether or not I'm going to make it home
Some days I don't even feel like picking up my phone
I've been stressing about if Imma end up dying alone
So conflicted
Who would've predicted that the nigga with no prescriptions would end up being addicted
The pressure of being in position to be commissioned
While being well in the midst of attaining the golden ticket
My superstition, leaves me well outside of the realm of recognition
My visions hit reality and tends to end in collisions
It seems I've been condemned and misery is my sentence
So I look to God and start pleading for some type of forgiveness
Life is just a movie and I'm a simple intermission
Navigating through it while living in the same position
It's crazy how I've been a victim of my own decisions
I guess I really am just my own opposition
I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate
Now I just need to chill out and just meditate
I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate
Now I just need to chill out and just meditate
Born to win, I sinned, did it again
Even long after I swore that I'm never giving in
I strive to survive and reach for the skies and never stop for anything til the ending begins
Moving fast in a delayed state of mind
Free to think what I want while my brain remains confined
And then I move on to complain that I am way too behind I mean
What else to expect when I'm just a slave by design
I need to find me
And I need to find peace
Searching for the light with the darkness right behind me
Going for so long not realizing it's inside me
At least I know it's not my fault for moving so blindly
Being humble and nearing exposure
Running towards the goal while the Devil's getting closer
Meanwhile I believe that I'm doing what I'm supposed to
All while taking the steps to start seeing some type of closure
I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate
Now I just need to chill out and just meditate
I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate
Now I just need to chill out and just meditate
Preaching to the gods, while I'm reaching into the skies
Seeking the end of time, while I read in between the lines
Dreaming that I rise, while clean in a suit and tie
And then you finally look up and you see me in disguise
But things will start to go up
Really think I've handled enough
I've done a lot but so what?
I'm tired of acting so tough
It's about that time to go nuts
I think I'm done growing up
Doing the lords work by making sure we all blowing up
So please, don't freeze, take heed when triggers squeeze, the need, to only try to appease when someone bleeds
It's obscene
You see how it's still okay to tease when someone is down on their knees and their struggling to breathe
I mean
I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate
Now I just need to chill out and just meditate
I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate
Now I just need to chill out and just meditate
I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate
Now I just need to chill out and just meditate
I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate
Now I just need to chill out and just meditate
I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate
Now I just need to chill out and just meditate
I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate
Now I just need to chill out and just meditate
I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate
Now I just need to chill out and just meditate
I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate
Now I just need to chill out
Just meditate

Written by:
Donald Lee

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