lowkii - reflection

Every morning I thank god for watching over me
Every night I wish I had somebody holding me
I lie awake and contemplate about the older me
I wonder if he's gonna be the man he's supposed to be
This life ain't what I ordered this is what they sold to me
I'd give it back but I done threw out all of my old receipts
A lot of homies told me they would never fold on me
They did me favors just so they can hang it over me
Turning to the colder me
You can't get a hold of me
Where y'all all was at when I was hurt and had no soul in me
Gave my life to Christ and now he fixing all the holes in me
Got to shoutout to the nigga that's always recording me
It's been like a year feel like Dastudio been molding me
Praying for the day I hop on stage and they all notice me

That'd be something right
I lose track of the days nowadays
I be like yo last night was crazy nowadays
Man I'm lying I be acting fugazzi nowadays
I'm just mad cause ain't no one here to save me nowadays
I wake up all alone got nobody to talk to
You can't relate and if you do then I feel awful
You tell the truth they hate on you and then they off you
Just look at Jesus look at Jah look at Martin
This world is scary close my eyes and I see monsters
Some days I used to pray I end up in a coffin
Sometimes I hate my life I just feel so exhausted
I wear a sign around my neck and it's says caution
Cause I break everything I touch I'm so impulsive
She don't believe in god but she be wearing crosses
This sacrilege and blasphemy it make me nauseous
You got some nerve to say to legalize abortions
I threw a rock in the water and watched it sink
I know a lot of people mad they be wishing that rock was me
And not a lot of people can see the vision or rock with me
I think my generation stupid they live in monotony
And I be tryna tell them something but they don't acknowledge me
So I just leave them to their ways of indilligent mockery
And everybody think it's fun to indulge in debauchery
Until you end up with some herpes
I stick with monogamy
Yea
I'm losing everything I love and that is not okay
I wish my momma prayed
I wish somebody stayed
But they out somewhere getting lit like it's a holiday
And I don't hold a grudge I let it go like bombs away
I don't got no enemies
Peace and love the remedy
I been hurt since 17
Told my pain to let me be
I let go of Emily
Now I feel so heavenly
I'm just letting go of everything that was making me me

The hardest part of change is definitely the commitment
Waking up everyday like naw I can't do this no more I gotta get right
I gotta be better
But you niggas don't listen to anything I say anyway so it's whatever lowkii

Written by:
JoJo Snow

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