L.F.O.D. - Mental

Here it comes again
Slowly creeping in
Questioning my worth
Darkness descends
Misguided since birth
I could never contend
Life's trials still hurt
And I am never content
Raised up in the dirt
Always playing pretend
I wasn't very good
At making new friends
I really couldn't see the point
They would all leave in the end
Or stab me in the fucking back
With deceitful intent
The weird kid in class
Sitting alone with my pen
Scribbling words on a pad
Just trying to blend
Avoiding the pack
Following less popular trends
Picked on for being fat
And an outcast I guess
Facing odds that stacked
My home life a mess
I had to learn how to act
Amidst the pressure and stress
Carried an old tattered bag
Ashamed of the way I was dressed
They judged your worth by a tag
My brands were never the best
Anxiety
Hate
Depression
How many pills do you take
Anger
Fear
Sadness
Afraid to look in the mirror
Anxiety
Hate
Depression
How many pills do you take
Anger
Fear
Sadness
Afraid to look in the mirror
Please seek help
Please seek help
As an adult
I just try to get by
Pushing back insecurities
That I'm feeling inside
Not much has changed
There's still devils to hide
That appear when provoked
My rage is building with time
Still keep to myself
In very few I confide
Always slow to trust
I've been told too many lies
I spend a lot of days afraid
When my anxiety flies
Depression takes the rest
Oppressive clouding my mind
Indecisive at best
Searching for words I won't find
Moving like the walking dead
No sign of life in my eyes
Zero pride in my work
My talents always disguised
Diminished self worth
No confidence to survive
Feeling so grave
Like being buried alive
While gagged up and taped
I still struggle and writhe
Being consumed while awake
I lay paralyzed
Thinking what's it going to take
To live a regular life
Anxiety
Hate
Depression
How many pills do you take
Anger
Fear
Sadness
Afraid to look in the mirror
Anxiety
Hate
Depression
How many pills do you take
Anger
Fear
Sadness
Afraid to look in the mirror
Please seek help
Please seek help
Please seek help
Please seek help
Please seek help
Please seek help

Written by:
Ryan Shorey

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