Jay2Alias - Finding Myself

Many college students
Have gone to college and gotten hooked on drugs,
Marijuana, and alcohol
Listen
Don't try to be someone else
Be yourself and know that that's good enough
Tell me your not use to this
Our love is not used for this
(Shit like what's even going on)
Lately I give into what you want
I know I said your what I want
(Like maybe I don't even know what I want anymore like I don't know)
Maybe I spoke a little too soon
Head above water
I'd find a way to drown inside of an empty pool
Friends around it feels like an empty room
I reached out like too many times
Gave options but I crossed so many lines
I'm hard to handled that's your favorite line
(I'm not even here for the bullshit today)
You don't even known me girl
I barely even know myself
Nobody's perfect
Well I can't tell
Putting on a mask it's hard to sell
You saying things that you don't mean
If only
You come around and just
Show me
You come around and just
Show me
So I had given up
Soul searching
Bridge burning
Type of nigga
Who's still hurting
Still falling
I'm still learning
Can't sleep I'm still turning
Yeah
Finding myself
Is hard to do
But ask yourself
Is it hard for you
Is it hard for you
Don't try to be someone else
Don't try to be like someone else, don't try to act like someone else
Be yourself, be secure with yourself
Rely and trust upon your own decisions
Yeah
Here lies all of my I trust
I guess I can't do nothing right is why I had struggled with love
Thank god I made it to twenty
And, that's all praise to above
Could still be giving out niggas thirty point games
While I play on a crutch
(See Maybe that's my problem I be talking too much shit man)
Maybe I'm too cocky
A tad bit standoffish
Never really in the mix
Dodging all of the friends
That come with this shit
I came to college to make a change for myself but, it feels
More so like it's just for my family
Niggas don't understand me man
So I had given up
Soul searching
Bridge burning
Type of nigga
Who's still hurting
Still falling
I'm still learning
Can't sleep I'm still turning
Yeah
Finding myself
Is hard to do
But ask yourself
Is it hard for you
So I had given up
Soul searching
Bridge burning
Type of nigga
Who's still hurting
Still falling
I'm still learning
Can't sleep I'm still turning
Finding myself
Is hard to do
But ask yourself
Is it hard for you
So I had given up
Soul searching
Bridge burning
Type of nigga
Who's still hurting
Still falling
I'm still learning
Can't sleep I'm still turning
Finding myself
Is hard to do
But ask yourself
Is it hard for you
Look
Jay
Yeah
So I been stuck in the house (okay)
Just avoiding the shit
Gossip and rumors
I don't even party
Been focused on music (yeah, what)
No time for my feelings so I'm telling them sorry
So I'm Close to the edge, (like what)
Just try not to lose it
No time to slow down
Well lately I proved it (yeah)
I'm finding myself (yeah)
But who's checkin for me (yeah)
Hopes to find love
Studio is filled with confessions from me (what)
It's hard to believe but, I'm letting them see
My parents had flaws so their following me
But some of that shit I can't blame on my genes
Stood all alone I needed no team
It's hard to let go of the image you seen
But I promise I changed
I Came along way from being fifteen
Emotions and mental been gone
My house ain't a home unless you coming along
I know it don't work but it can't all be wrong
Blood sweat and tears in all of my songs
So fuck it you know that I'm
Hating this shit (okay)
I Strive to be great (hey)
Gave her my love but, it's taking a minute
Hard on myself
Tell me someone who isn't
Scared to just fall
Making me scared of losing and living
(What did you do?)
Tryna' just ball I'm focused on winning
A lack of my time it cannot be given
Don't answer no calls unless money is mentioned
Perfection in reach I don't aim to be second (yeah, yeah)
A lot on my mind so I'm constantly stressing
Reach out my hands it hurts how I'm stretching
Eyes on the crown the top is my prize
You speak on my city then I'm known as the best (the best)
Coming in first I don't care about your five
Them niggas not me they can follow in line
Top stars is next y'all can gather behind
Running up laps not wasting my time
Showing my love can't fake on the guys
I stay on my hustle, I stay on my grind
It's finally time
You know
Perfection is something that I struggle with
But, like who in this world do you know that's been perfect like
If your hearing this now I think I know who I wanna be
I wanna be
Jay2Alias

Written by:
Jaden Keels

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