Eric Armitage - Diary of a Madman

The portrait that I have painted of myself is a caricature
My family must think I've been hit with a terrible curse
The world gets the version of me that's very absurd
The mirror gets another version that's rarely in church
But still I wake up and I thank God for it
A couple seconds, that's the only time I got for Him
Shit been going down hill like I'm long boarding
With this mirror image of myself, it's been a long morning
The time I spend saying some dumb shit, ninety percent
The other ten is me being real and trying to vent
Confess my sins to a priest, see how I can repent
Knowing that I'm just tailgating outside the event
Found love in myself at a young age
But I'm worried that it won't be enough one day
When my friends are all cuffed and I'm just chilling in the cut
With the diary of a madman, writing another page, oh shit
Existential dread, dread, fuck me up
Stop messing with my head, head - damn
Oh yeah, this life is one and done
Wish that I could buy some time
Nah, that watch is one of one
I reverse engineered it from the jump in this bitch
Say whatever it takes to make it thump in this bitch
Built my personality around what bumps in this bitch
That's the type of shit that make you want to jump off a bridge
Who am I, every word is do or die
Every new attempt to gain more attention is suicide
Am I real, am I fake, is it dope, you decide
Shit is draining, but it still beats wearing a suit and tie forever
Twenty six, single life
Flash forward to the old man sitting at bingo night
On his phone just refreshing to see if he get those likes
On that new freestyle he posted at 8:00pm
Pray to mother Mary that I find a nice mommy with a
Perky set of tits who thinks differently than all them bitches
That's worth more to me than all them riches
That the world offers and I'll never try to bargain with him
But I've learned that they're few and far between
The perfect life they try to sell you ain't what it seems
And I can't believe you fell for that like what the fuck you mean
I'm pissed that Eric's even in the term American Dream
Just my thoughts, but I'm still all good
A little breakdown, let me check up under the hood
If I could go back and change, I don't think that I would
It's kind of fucked, but sometimes I just feel misunderstood
Just my thoughts, but I'm still all good
A little breakdown, let me check up under the hood
If I could go back and change, I don't think that I would
It's kind of fucked, but sometimes I just feel misunderstood

Written by:
Eric Armitage

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