Erin Aurandt - sober

Waking up hungover,
And now I'm starting over
Another day, another chance to be sober
Can I do it this time?
In the day, I'm just fine
But then it turns to nighttime
And that's when I decide
That I don't wanna give it up right now
I know that I'll make it out somehow
Nobody knows the truth and that's all I care about
I lie to my mom so she won't cry
Does that make me the bad guy?
I don't recognize myself some nights
But I don't wanna stay this way
I'm not okay
I'm trapped where I am now
I keep dragging myself down
I don't wanna stay this low
No control over me, since seventeen
I want this over, to be sober
I'm doing things at my own pace
And day by day, I keep learning from all of my mistakes
Oh, I can see it in my face
I'm so tired, but I know
That I'll thank myself one day
'Cause every day I'm trying not to drink
Just trying to find faith in everything
And everybody says they know what it's like
But they don't, no
Everybody thinks they know what I'm going through
But they don't have a goddamn clue
What I'm dealing with,
That I'm fighting for my life
And I'm just trying to be kinder to myself
When I'm drinking, I'm not thinking
I turn into somebody else
It doesn't matter how I got here,
All that matters is what's next
What I said, what I did, who I hurt, who I lost,
I don't want this in my head
I don't wanna lose this love
Lost so much to get what I have now
I'm still digging my way out
I don't wanna chase that low
No control over me, but finally
I'm glad it's over, and I'm sober

Written by:
Erin Aurandt

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