Nostalgia. - Calling It, Pt. 2

Five in the morning layin' up in bed
Jottin' down all the bullshit of what you said
Inside my heart is breaking
And I'm tired of the faking like it don't
Hurt when I see him come around
Not even blink-182 can ever drown him out
I'm tired of pretending
Online Songs are never ending even though
You clearly know how much it brings me down
And it's a little messed up you still keep him around
You call it fucking envy
I'm not jealous I'm offended by the fact
If it were me to chill with Melody
In a parking lot at midnight, you'd be leaving me
I'm sick of the hypocrisy
Defensive when I ask
Is he still on your mind
Is he in your heart
Do I want to know
What happens in the dark
You said it's one last try to set things straight
And I just don't mean to instigate
It ain't one last try a thousand times
I could see it in your face
It fucking brings me down
I'm hating on myself
I'm feeling like a clown
Am I the joke
You say I've lost my head
And that you're over him
You say he's just a friend
That you've loved before
Two in the noon I'm dead asleep in bed
Dreamin' 'bout all the things that I wish I'd said
Inside my head's awake cuz in my mind I can't escape from Cain at all
Or the ghosts of the guys you've known
Don't call it selfish when I took your issues into my home
I salted your windows, locked your doors, and at the crossroads I had traded my soul for yours
You told me things that I knew were lies
Like how his DM's in your phone were hidden for a time
Then your come-clean, came as no surprise
Still, you wondered why I ask
Is he still on your mind
Is he in your heart
Do I want to know
What happens in the dark
You said it's one last try to set things straight
And I just don't mean to instigate
It ain't one last try a thousand times
I could see it in your face
It fucking brings me down
I'm hating on myself
I'm feeling like a clown
Am I the joke
You say I've lost my head
And that you're over him
You say he's just a friend
That you've loved before

Written by:
Michael O'Malley

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