M3LLY 9 - Past Tense

Yea this here is a story about a boy on a journey to luv
A journey to self
Maybe a little bit of both
Yea
Me an baby girl we was on the cusp
I Was only making moves outta the luv
Now I'm sitting tryna wipe off all the rust
But Its too late now them pipes already bust
The damage done
Smelled cardiac around the block how deep the cut
All that blood rushin to the head how red he was
Raging like a super saiyan yea he had enough
Felt the strength of 100 men I said he fucked
Had to be my own mans no one could help me up
It was a solo mission
I passed the test we done
Thought I worked hard enough
call my bluff na I don't feel that stuff
We was just playin round
Still a child at heart I ain't gon fake it now
All this tension you can lessen out ya shoulders now
Sweetness I taste it now
My head was in the clouds
Caught me on the sunny side you lucky my ego proud
Still tryna figure out how to stand out from the crowd
Who around me really wanna see me get off the ground
Who gonna hold me down
Who really supportin the dreams I had since I was a child
Who secretly was waitin for me to just throw in the towel
How the fuck that sound
Shelf my goals n just fold
Tell me then How would I ever know
The heights that's within reach I might invest in those
Then I noticed triggers that niggas was still pressin on
wounds like a doormat everybody was steppin on
Why I gave 'em keys to my emotions I might never know
I ain't realize at the time what the fuck was goin on
Just a way to cope with the trauma I was holdin on
Tryna people please everybody would just go along
Still Got sum toxic traits, know I gotta let em go
Inner child cryin out, too scared to let em know
Uncomfortable feelings on display ima let 'em show
I won't dim my light like I did many times before
Cuz I know in a state of comfort I won't ever grow
Had to shed light on my roots generational
Momma lessons couldn't shield me from all them karmic holes
Universe work in funny ways a lil comical
Meditation self realization of how all this goes
In circles
I get it tho
We here to break curses really feel it in my soul
Castin spells let these niggas know that we spiritual
Back to the physical of dealing with these feelings tho
Everyday struggle I'm still workin on the healing tho
Higher self tell me to stay focused on my dreams and hopes
On the right path despite everything you hearing bro
You know how it goes when you dealing with them lows shit
But maybe not
We all deal with shit differently
Different plots
Yea
I ain't dumb enough to think that I'm like everybody
And everybody ain't like me
Even if they try to be
Remember that we are unique
Each and every one of us
Might just have to walk alone
Might have to get on the bus
More love not war please put the swords aside
niggas seen my boundaries still crossed the border line
It don't matter to me I can no longer afford to lie
Only lettin those in my circle that got open minds

Written by:
Lamell Jackson

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