Moose Truffle - Wake Up

Oh we're back here
I want to watch the world burn
Everybody's life is no concern
I was told to be silent and learn
I watch as my family crumbles
Look back at myself in the puddles
I refuse to walk on the beach
Answers are still what I seek
The sunken place has vanished
I would kill to be in another life damnit
Suicide won't save me from my thoughts
As I'm in my coffin as my body rots
I don't believe that love can save us
Intrusive thoughts and decisions cave us
Why would god make us suffer with what he gave us
I look at everything that got me far
As I drink away my emotions at the bar
I think about all the bridges I broke
Faded from reality when I inhale the smoke
We're here until we fulfilled our purpose
Until we know what it is, we're all not certain
I lost my ambition to to be positive
Even people have a lot to give
Do we have a good reason to live?
I paid my dues when I risked my career
Stared at death many times, I got nothing to fear
Only when Mebo passed away I truly shed a tear
My older brother thinks I'm gonna amount to nothing
I got a a lot of faith that I can turn this rap shit into something
I know I've said that many times but I wasn't bluffing
My autism is the root of all my problems in life
I can't tell the difference between good or bad in sight
I don't wanna have a fallout this early already
Even if I see the light with her there I know I'm ready
I'd rather give it up than keep it pushing
After being stabbed in the back blood gushing
And told by many people to shut up after shushing
I wanna know why I can't find the answers I needs
Knowledge and experience is what my brain feeds
Sometimes I wonder if my life has meaning
Why am I alive why am I breathing
Why are people believing I can't do shit
It's got me real clueless how ruthless people are
They don't realize I've made it far
They never ask you how you been
Sometimes I tell em I wish I was dead
Struggled with sum I can't control
I can seem to grasp my logic from patron
Lost Justin to the jealousy and greed of man
If I could save him I would man damn
I overthink my life choices and answers
Even after Mebo died from cancers
That woman was my momma unlike my own
Hearts been broken many years it's been torn
Grew up mentally abused from my own mother
Nowadays I get the same criticism from my brother
Didn't help that I was ridiculed for the way I think
Shit happened so fast I couldn't blink
My whole life I didn't know what was right or wrong
I hope I could put my pain on a song
I think about the times I was used
My mind since birth was abused
My love life isn't sweet
Seems I get broken up with on repeat
I wanted to be happy like them
I haven't felt joy since I was before ten

Written by:
Beau Berkhout

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