dendrick - DISTORTED REALITY

I really mean all this
It's from the heart
I hope you know that, let's go
I love everything I'm not
Feel like I thought so much about you I forgot just how to talk to myself or the people
Convincing myself I was evil
And then I turn around and now I'm mad cause I let you build this fallacy
So out of touch with reality I fall asleep with a bliss
It's the only escape when your life is turning to shit
But I wake up throwing fits, cause apparently I never fit into anything
But everything falling deeper in the abyss with every step that I take
Every day that I wake, I'm getting further from the love a little closer to my grave
And how the fuck I'm supposed to be ok with that
I wanna take back the words I said cause damn I loved when we were only friends
But you don't feel like that
If I had left you there in pieces would you call right back
Or would I crawl right back, into your side of the story
You were right take all the glory I'm a fucking piece of shit is that what you want me to say?
Is my entire goal in life to make sure that you're ok?
I spent my whole day tryna figure it out
Now when I crawl up in these sheets I'm unaware of how much I drown
It's all about you but how the fuck you think I feel?
I feel indecent for chasing something that's really real to me
Heaven would be a steal cause apparently I don't know how to feel for you
I'm always hearing you out, bury my doubt
Lost my achievements in grieving shit I don't want to deal with
Heal with medications think I'd rather be alone
My anxiety is crazy every time I look at my phone
I remember the day I placed myself up on the throne
And then you came along and brought me down
And now I'd rather be a fucking bone in the ground
Maybe then someone would come around and think that I'm useful
A fucking dog always truthful
I hate the way that we're brutal to other people for what?
Feel like everyone wants love so why the fuck would we do anything but that?
You know, I really feel like that sometimes
I try not to forget that everything in this life can be taken away from you in a matter of seconds
I feel like if we operate with that in mind, everything starts to mean so much more
It's unfortunate I let you distort this reality of what I like
Stick to samples and drums that'll get me flowing on the open mic
Only way I can open up
Used to open a mikes but now I feel that shit just keeps me in a rut
Or the routine of not doing things
Can't lie it really screw with me and my mental health
Rather worry bout me than let you deal with how the cards are dealt
I'd rather die with no plan B I run this shit till I run out of wealth
In other words I'll run, til the well runs dry
If this what god planned for me I'll be ok if I die
Don't feel defeated I feel I been living free for a while
Took me 20 plus years to learn that doing me is all I need
Feeling eager to please people that only want receipts
I'm not gon drop to my knees to please if that's what you wanna see
If that's all you want me to be I think I'd rather head out
Rather be happy in a coffin than miserable and spread out

Written by:
Eric Trumble

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