D Blanco - Emancipation

How I'm supposed to pull myself out of depression
I ain't even pull myself out the closet
Round one in a deadly gauntlet
Stuck in the woods and it's fucking haunted
Whole life feel like a fucking goner
Big city feel like a ghost town
In my small town feeling like I'm hell bound
Taking emotional voyages and odysseys
Just to pinpoint, justify, internal oddities
Searching, yearning for an answer
Cede defeat, compromise, just any answer
Clairvoyant epiphanies, and trial and error
Just to survive emotions of terror
Working, dreaming, hoping that my mind will finally clear up
I'm so unsatisfied, I'm so unsatiated
I'm clinging on to anything I think that gone to make me greater
I was down off the radar
Off the tree with no paper
Taking shots with no chaser
Mind cracking like wafers
I'm stuck in the woods
I'm stuck in the mud
I ain't got Noah
I'm stuck in the flood
Can't finish my sentence
I'm begging the judge
The hard place won't move and the rock won't budge
So out of touch
I just feel like a clutch
Stuck in the mindset, stop and go reset
Introspect, reflect, pain and regret
Shame and deflect, and my mind spinning pirouette
Cause I'm haunted by your silhouette
I don't want to be loud,
Don't want to be gay
Don't want to be black
Don't want to be trap
But I'm loud, gay, black, and feeling trapped
And I feel like for thirty seasons I've been holding back
Out of reality, I caught up in the abstract
Who do you blame
Mother, father, brother, or sister
Is it stranger, daughter, misses, or mister
Is it your friends, ex, or president
Or is it all of your past making your present tense
I said, who do you blame
Mother, father, brother, or sister
Is it stranger, daughter, misses, or mister
Is it your friends, ex, or president
Or is it all of your past making your present tense
Damn, I just want to be emancipated
Loud, gay, black, trap, yeah, this is my emancipation
I just want to be emancipated
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, this is my emancipation
For every big dog, there's a Caesar Milan
And we all look like some dry food
In this cannibalistic system
Nihilist wage slaves, historic omissions
Visceral screams and horrible visions
Curiosity, can't leave no stone unturned
But how I'm supposed to chill out when inside I burn
Last year I realized quick on how life can turn
Now gwola family and I fill up my concerns
It's time to make it happen, champion in dreams
But you loser in action
Where that winners anxiety to ruin relaxing, the mind a beautiful tool, or the deadliest weapon
The best I ever felt when I astral projected
I'm tired of the lessons, I'm searching for blessings
I'm pleading and begging, divine intervention and some peace in this tension
No more stranger in my mirror, defining my self-perception
The stars, mother Gaea, ancestors, guide my ascension
Who do you blame
Mother, father, brother, or sister
Is it stranger, daughter, misses, or mister
It's your friends, ex or president
Or is it all of your past making your present tense
So who do you blame

Written by:
Darius White

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