oan - CARCOSA

19 years
Won't get to get em
If the window keeps on whispering
Pure adrenaline
Rotten and decomposed
Runs through my rotten veins
But I already discarded to blow my brains
If I decide to jump
I'll do it once I understand I'm free

It's
Twelve hours a day of wondering
"Will I get to see my blood rust
Once I release it?"
Why shouldn't I slide my wrist
If all I wish is pain
Yeah, I'm scared
But I won't bail
If you really want to kill yourself
You don't fail

18 and a half
Won't get to get em
If the window keeps on whispering
Silver lining playbook has been robbed
But I am faithful
'Cause nothing's ever over
And I swear to you that
I'll be back to being me
Once I'm sober

It's all a play until you die
A dream within a dream
You try to fool yourself
But you won't fool me
'Cause I know that I'm a dream
That dreams of being a person
But that person soon will end
And you will all disappear

It's the story of my 'O'
The girl of my dream
She couldn't kill herself
'Cause she knew she wasn't real
But reality is dictated by a little piece of steel
'Cause a dick and a vagina
Decided to spin the wheel

All the mentors in the world
Push you further to the cliff
Ideologies that drive you
To your fuckin origin
Paradoxical obsession
The cat and the box were set
But you can't open the box
If you're dead

18 years I got to get em
But the window keeps on whispering
And I can not slit its throat
So I'll destroy mine
Auto-annihilation venerated
A subculture's been created
But they're lying
If you wish to make me bleed
"It's all fine"

Make your brain levitate
Until your feet won't touch the ground
And the blood flows in reverse
Into your ears as holy sound
Penetrate your skin relentless
The truth is inside of you
Seeking answers will seem endless
Let your guts come out of you!

Poet is the alchemist
That can turn his soul into words
Sometimes, so powerful
That they can cut like swords
But, only other nightcrawlers know
What hides beyond the ink
A catharsis that prevents the blood
From flowing on the sink
And
Maybe it will be me
Or maybe it will be time
That will make me understand
That my life is mine
But
All I can asure now's
That the moment's gettin closer
That being the day
That I step into Carcosa

Written by:
Oan Hostench

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