Vishnu - I WON'T ATTEND MY FUNERAL

I've got way too much in my head
Stop asking questions I don't understand
What it feels like
To feel nice
I'm still lost in paradise
I must be losing my mind
But then again I've lost it twice
It doesn't feel right
Nothing feels wrong
I've lost it all
I still feel so calm
I'm alright
I'm doing okay
It doesn't matter
It doesn't matter anyway
I'm alright
I'm doing okay
It doesn't matter
It doesn't matter anyway
I see a mask
I see a face
I see myself all around in pain
Reflections of torture
Surrounded by forces
Telling me that I'm the monster
I'm doing fine
I'm doing alright
The thought of losing my mind and losing my life
To self destruct with hate
Self care is too much work
Can't contemplate
I know I'm wrong
I believe I'm right
That's what you get for not thinking twice
But if no one
Thought twice about suicide, why are so many people alive
Self harm?
I feel no pain, it doesn't matter
I could do this all day
It used to hurt
A blade in my veins
Now I can't feel nothing
Please, I wanna feel pain
I'm alright
I'm doing okay
It doesn't matter
It doesn't matter anyway
I'm alright
I'm doing okay
It doesn't matter
It doesn't matter anyway
I see a mask
I see a face
I see myself all around in pain
Reflections of torture
Surrounded by forces
Telling me that I'm the monster
I'm doing fine
I'm doing alright
The thought of losing my mind and losing my life
To self destruct with hate
Self care is too much work
Can't contemplate
I feel like I know what I've done
But no one knows what I've become
I'm tired of acting okay
I wanna break free
Let out my pain
(Let out my pain)
(Let out my pain)
No one knows that it's easy to care and I wonder if
I were to die who would attend my funeral for one last goodbye
(I wouldn't attend it myself)
I'm alright
I'm doing okay
It doesn't matter
It doesn't matter anyway
I'm alright
I'm doing okay
It doesn't matter
I just wanna feel okay
I see a mask
I see a face
I see future in my veins
On the brink of extinction
Surrounded by forces
Telling me that I'm the monster
I'm doing fine
I'm doing alright
The thought of losing my mind and losing my life
To self destruct with hate
Self care is too much work
Can't contemplate
I'm just kidding

Written by:
Vishnu Menon

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